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Sunday, 30 May 2010

Holy Moly~

6 months??

=P

Oh well...

Enjoyed myself very much yesterday. Watched "Bounty Hunter"!

Hung out with Alex and Choon Hui the day before. Those 2 haven't changed a bit. Alex is still as irritating as ever, and Choon Hui's still the same old funny dude. I reckon the latter looks more handsome now though. =P

Gotta practice now!

Thursday, 27 May 2010

When To Do What Not To Do

Learnt another lesson today.

When someone tells you it's okay to do something that you normally hesitate doing/don't do for fear of interrupting... something, don't do it.

No matter how tempted you are, just... don't... do it.

Cause when the response you get feels like a bucket of cold water has been emptied on your head, you'd feel like you might as well have ignored _________.

Garr... I'm talking in circles. O_O

Couldn't sleep last night cause of that big cup of Cafe Latte I had at Starbucks yesterday evening. I had already downed half a cup before I went : shit! It's past 5pm!!! and mom was like: that's it la~ you won't be able to fall asleep tonight.

And true enough, it was 4am-ish by the time I dozed off. Woke up at 11++, had brunch with the parents, then fetched the siblings. Practiced, showered, practiced, took a break, ate fruits, practiced again...

Now I'm just waiting for dinner to be served so that I can eat and get back to more practice.

I hate it when my practice seems to be going nowhere. It makes me extra cranky and my mind just over-thinks, which results in me being overly touchy and then I get pissed off at the smallest things.

Honestly, I wish I could control my emotions better.

*snarls*

Yelled at my brother earlier for being an absolute pain in the butt.


Why does my heart feel so dreadfully heavy?

Tuesday, 25 May 2010

The Pros and Cons...

of having too much time on your hands?


I have time to sleep, but can't fall asleep.

Maybe cause I don't work myself hard enough during the day?

Apart from sending my siblings up and down from tuition/school, running errands for my parents, meeting up with friends, and practice; I really have nothing else to do with my time. O_O

I'm getting back into the practice "groove" though. Slacked a little the first 2 days I was back home, and felt so darn guilty cause my fingers started feeling really stiff. Blergh~ Have to prepare somethings to play for Liu Jian as well.

Started on a new etude yesterday and realised how bleeding inflexible my left hand fingers are. -_-" Have... to work... harder!!!

Outing with the MPYO folks on Sunday was fun. =)

Camp's in 11 days~!

*hops around like an idiot*

Monday, 24 May 2010

Grr...

Was on the verge of swearing at the dentist's just now.

*growls*

Was putting on the finishing touches to my top row braces (yes, I've got them on again) when my dentist decided to let his female apprentice try her hand at attaching the bands to the brackets.

Fuck I felt like she was attempting to wrench my whole jaw out. *curses* Thankfully my dentist took over after her 3rd failed attempt. Stupid woman. -_-"

Have to put braces on for the top row of my teeth again cause he took them off a little too early the last time and my two front teeth were fast returning to the ugly state they were in before. =P

Gonna go renew my license now! Heehee~

Toodles!


I miss you.

Saturday, 22 May 2010

Fatigue

Hardly slept last night.

Woke up with a start around 7am after a not-so-nice dream.

It's along the same lines as one I had a couple of months back.

Maybe it's a sign?



That's why I really needed to talk to you... Sorry for disturbing you at such a bad time.


Sometimes I really just hate myself.

Friday, 21 May 2010

I'm 3 Days Late...


But Happy 5 months anyways~

=)


And erm... I'm absolutely too lazy to blog in detail/post stacks of pictures, so yeah...

Ya'll can just check them out on Facebook. =P

Pavilion this weekend! =D=D=D

"Robin Hood" was not bad, though (again) I looked away when they were chopping and hacking away at each other. O_O Had Haagen Daaz ice cream as well. Chocolate... yumm~! Lunch was at Dome's - chicken pie! And before I left, we went to Isetan to get sushi for my family, then to the food court to get his kebab, finally to "Auntie Anne's" for some pretzels!

I'm really looking forward to the rest of my holidays. =D

Meeting up with Choon Hui and Alex next Wednesday!

Then it's camp!

Looked through the scores that just arrived yesterday, shouldn't be that bad. Gonna try finding the actual music, not the finale-extracted ones that we were provided with.

Toodles!



miss you =)

Tuesday, 18 May 2010

Positively Beaming

Can't wait for tomorrow~ Heehee~

Might be watching "Robin Hood"!

Hope to have lunch in Dome's.

Dinner with the siblings.

Parents coming back tomorrow night~!


I know this sounds crazy, but I kinda miss Singapore. O_O

But I DO love having more time to myself, as well as being able to practice what and when I want. =D Boy, and I had no idea I missed driving so much. Feels good to be driving around again though I was kinda cranky my second day back cause I had to wake up at 6.30 to send my siblings to school. =P

Was looking through the pics we took in Sentosa just now. I miss the beach part. And though the weather was hot and unforgivingly humid, at least the sea water provided some form of comfort to our feet. I can still remember someone complaining about his feet - which kept sinking into the sand... The memories of that day have been permanently etched into my heart. <3



This is the best shot I took during the trip, I think. Hahaha. I love the pretty fishes and corals. =D

Sunday, 16 May 2010

*sighs*

Miss you...

It's really different lar... Couldn't really fall asleep last night cause _________, and I don't feel like sleeping yet cause I know I won't fall asleep straightaway, but I have to sleep soon cause I have to wake up early to send my siblings to school as well as teach some of my mom's students (since she's off on a holiday with me dad)...

O_O

Oh well, at least I can (hopefully) look forward to Wednesday. =)

Universal Studios, Singapore outing pictures are up on Facebook here.

Being home feels great, but I feel like there's something missing, like there's an empty space somewhere in my heart...

It's just not the same, not being able to just turn around and ask/tell you something. I caught myself more than 10 times today; having questions/statements at the tip of my tongue that I would've asked/said out loud if you were with me. Especially when I was practicing.


From the bottom of my heart, I miss you.


ZZZZZZzzzzz time!!!!!!!

Wednesday, 12 May 2010

Promises.

Golden rule number 2.

Don't make a promise, break it; make another promise, then break it again.


A person can only forgive so many times.

A person can only have her heart broken so many times.

A person can only wait so long...


Garr... it's probably the messed-up hormones talking. I should be fine in a few days. O_O Hope I'm not just giving myself excuses for feeling the way I do now though... Was tearing for no apparent reason on the bus back to PGP earlier.

*sigh*

I keep telling myself not to think that way, to be a little more open-minded/considerate/understanding. It's definitely easier to be mean than be nice, but what sucks is that you really want to be nice, but there are these nasty thoughts in your head that just won't go away.


To be honest, my heart broke a little when I got your text. You could have texted me earlier to tell me not to wait...


Oh well.......

Tuesday, 11 May 2010

Why...

do some people do something they know they don't like doing, but do them anyway?


It's been a tiring week...

Y'know what? I'm just cranky cause the err... monthly nightmare's back, but yeah... It doesn't help that we have to deal with 6++hours of rehearsals/mock recording everyday for 6 days straight. And I was getting a little annoyed with the "click"(s) that we were hearing through ear phones. I still wanna be able to hear myself playing, so I had only one side in my right ear. Best part is, I absolutely hate listening to stuff through one ear. *wails*

*sighs*

Feel kinda hungry now... Bah.

Ok, that was random. -_-"

I can act unselfish, it's never been a problem for me. But I wish I could THINK unselfish as well...

Okay, here's what usually happens. A selfish thought comes to mind, but before I can SAY it out loud, I quickly wave it away. Thing is, after that, it still bugs me. It bugs me SO bad that I get angry at myself for thinking it in the first place. O_O!!!

But a person can't help thinking what he/she's thinking right? Oh boy, I really think too much. =( Wish there was a way for a person to train to think less. LOL.

Why is it so hard to be a nice person?

Got this off some blog I accidentally came across. The gal's English is bad, so this is the edited version. =P

you talk about sacrifices. Sure, there are many... But what about the things I've done for you? Do they all account for nothing? Is this what I'm merely here for? Being your pillar of support? Not that I mind... on the contrary, I don't mind at all. However, I would appreciate a little more support from you as well.

Sometimes I don't even know whether you know I exist. You walked past me at the cafeteria today without looking at me, did you even see me there? Or were you too busy flirting with that pretty blond girl beside you?

The passage above is directed at no one. Just... food for thought?

Lol.

People, appreciate what you've got before it's gone. Seriously. And err... watch where you're going/stepping (I'm talking about relationships). Don't fall into a deep hole, or worse still - fall into a hole, pick up a shovel, and dig deeper.

=P

Toodles!

Friday, 7 May 2010

Hates...

Feeling like I'm being chastised.

It's not like I did it on purpose. Eves-dropping fail, okay? I know it was wrong to assume, I probably should have asked you to double-check with the others, but I said I was sorry, didn't I?

Must've heard all the wrong things cause I haven't even eaten yet. No appetite... -_-"

Even now, my stomach's telling me I should eat, but I just don't feel like eating anything. I wanna practice, but Liu Yi's reaching anytime now so I have to wait for her to get here.

Never mind... Doughnuts!

Yesterday was~ fun. Downside, my legs are like, dual-colored now. O_O We went to Sentosa. I liked the "luge" ride thing, which is somewhat similar to go-carts. But faster. Heehee~ Underwater world was insane, I liked watching the sharks and stingrays swim around above my head. I'm weird, so sue me. Lol. Dolphin show was awesome too! Too bad we couldn't catch the fur seal show. =(

Will have a lot of pictures to upload once I'm back in KL.

Practiced a little just now. Changed my strings! Was getting a little irritated cause they kept going out of tune every 5 notes, but yeah... Heh~

Am in the computer lab waiting for the dudes to finish DotA-ing then we're heading back to PGP. *yawns* Its been tiring these two days...

zzzzzz....

MPYO folks coming down here tomorrow! =D

Wednesday, 5 May 2010

Occasionally...

People have just GOT to learn when to shut up.

*growls*

Referring to what someone said over lunch earlier, I thought I'd wanna get my personal thoughts on the matter out here.

*disclaimer: whatever I'm typing is just MY opinion. You can disagree with me, you can think I'm completely nuts for thinking this way, but it's just what I THINK. Freedom of speech might not exist here, but there's freedom of thought at least?

AND, nothing is specifically aimed at anyone in particular. Just general thoughts.*

I don't think there should be a problem in a relationship where religion is concerned. I'm a Christian, albeit not a staunch one, but I never had a problem with my boyfriend being a Christian or not. Heck, we hardly ever talk about the subject. As long as the guy loves you, and he doesn't have a problem with you going to church/temple...

WHO CARES?

As long as he/she doesn't worship the Satan or anything, I don't see why religion should be such a huge issue in a relationship. Frankly speaking, I don't get why you're willing to give the relationship up just because your boyfriend/girlfriend seems a little reluctant to convert.

If he/she sees good in the religion, he/she'll convert HIM/HERSELF. He/she doesn't need prompting from anyone, because religion is a SPIRITUAL thing. He/she should realize it ON-HIS/HER-OWN. You can try exposing someone to the good in believing in something, but saying something like : if you don't convert, we'll stop seeing each other.

What-the-hell.

It's the "if-you-love-me-have-sex-with-me" thing all over again. Asking your significant other to choose between you+your religion (which might potentially change his lifestyle in the process) and single-hood is just LOW. No offense, but isn't that being very unreasonable?

Imagine if HE/SHE was the one doing that to YOU? I don't think you'd like that much, no? And if you gimme that bullshit about your religion being better than whatever he/she's currently believing in, you're friggin' blind. NOTHING in the world is perfect, and neither is religion. I can dig up shit loads of bad/suspicious/questionable teachings in every religion, but I won't. Cause someone once told me, why waste time thinking about the bad stuff? Just believe in the good stuff, and you'll be fine.

And like I mentioned earlier this evening, if we're all gonna be so negative, then we'll all be very miserable people. -_-"

Sure, God should come before anything else. Then why don't you get that sorted out BEFORE you start the friggin' relationship???

Get-this-straight. I'm not trying to make you see it the way I do. I'm presenting a different perspective, MY perspective. Sometimes you just have to keep-things-simple.

Monday, 3 May 2010

Update?

Maybe next time.

I really want to update, I really do... But I just came back to PGP after a crazy day of performance, good (and fattening!) lunch, and 2 movies back-to-back!

I-need-my-sleep!

Normally, I'd be able to function at least till up to 10pm. But I'm very VERY close to jut shutting off now so I'm typing this as fast as I can before I faint at my desk. LOL!

Part of the reason I'm close to dying right now, is because I hadn't fully recovered from the Universal Studios outing with the family 2 days ago. I felt alright; tired, but alright. THEN we go do something crazy and now I want to just-sleep! =D

Have LOADSA pictures to upload once I get back to KL. Dad left the camera with me so I'm gonna take nice pictures for the next 2 weeks. Might as well, since I have to put up with staying in this hell hole until May 15th. O_O!!!

SLEEP TIME!


*zzzzzzzzz~*