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Thursday, 31 December 2009

Another Year... Gone.

It's freaky how fast time flew by this year... I barely feel like I've attended college, went through a series of unfortunate events in the process, auditioned for AYO and YST, took my A Levels exams, played in 4 MPYO camps, got accepted into YST, finished 2 mind-boggling projects...

Where did my 365 days go??

My mom asked me just now: hey, you're gonna leave soon, you know? Shouldn't you start packing?

Honestly, the 1 month I had back in Malaysia hardly felt like 1 week. All the outings, the camp, the trips, the tour-guiding... I look back and think: time really waits for no man...

I wish I could turn back time, go back and right a few wrongs...

January, where disaster struck, maybe I should've handled it a little better. February, I should've been better prepared for the AYO audition. March, I could've started studying for A Levels. April, getting accepted into YST and having to turn down Leeds... (maybe I could've found a way around it?) May, wishing I'd studied harder prior to A Levels trials and NOT skipped Econs classes just to avoid that bastard. June, A Levels exams... July, heading to Singapore, getting settled in YST (should've taken better care of myself - fell sick on the first week of the semester). August, the start of the semester and MPYO camp (I should've practiced more? =P). September, first group project... O_o October, went back to M'sia during the "reading week" (maybe I should've stayed in Singapore). November, 2nd group project (I think I was a bitch at one point...). December, heading back to Malaysia with Raymond, who was joined by a few other Singaporeans 3 days later (I could've done a better job as the hostess?).

And that's just outlining the big picture. So many things have happened in between, some of them I can't even remember anymore, others which details have faded greatly, some I don't even WANT to remember but are permanently stuck in my memories...

Just this year alone, I've lost a supposed "friend" for good, made a few dozen new ones, realising that my family will be there for me no matter what sh*t happens, discovered who my true friends are, realised how difficult it is to do the whole "let's-just-be-friends" thing, (finally) found someone (two people, actually) whom I can trust whole-heartedly, learnt that first impressions can really, be EXTREMELY deceiving... and a host of other things.

But I guess it could've been worse. Okay, there are wounds that will never heal, scars that will be there to remind me of things and events that I don't want remembered, people I've fallen out with, dreams that I had to wave goodbye to... but hey, life's unfair. =)

So I'm just gonna have to learn to take the rough with the smooth.

On a random note,

I heard this song on the radio once and have been trying to find it for ages, and I finally managed to, just 2 hours ago...

"I Stay in Love"
-Mariah Carey-

It's now officially the 1st of January 2010! 

Here's to a brand new year, a fresh start, and may it bring to everyone happiness, success, laughter and love.

I know it will be a very happy and exciting year for me. *beams*

6 Deysch and Counting!

Went to watch yet another movie today. O_O

I dunno what's up with us this week. Gone on a movie craze, I reckon. We watched a movie when we were in Genting, watched a movie again after coming back to KL, watched another movie today, AND we're gonna watch either Cirque Du Freak or Sherlock Holmes tomorrow. -_-;

Not, that I'm complaining.

Helps pass the time faster, in any case. =D

Had lunch with the siblings in Pizza Hut this afternoon. Stuffed crust and lots and LOTS-a mozzarella cheese... *yummm* SO sinful, but what the heck? We only live once. *wink*

Watched "Alvin and the Chipmunks 2" earlier. I REALLY wanted to catch Cirque Du Freak, which just came out today, but NO... The one at 2pm was sold out, and the showtimes after that would've been too late. (mom wanted to avoid the jam) O_o

Oh, the concert last night was good. But it was a little heavy on the ears (for my mom and I, at least) cause 3 out of 4 groups were doing REALLY mainstream stuff, which is nice, but I can't listen to it for long. Makes my mind go a little wonky. Had to resort to thinking about my plans for the next day to distract myself from the vast amount of jamming they were doing. &@#$%^!!


Alex just came over with some souvenirs he bought from Bangkok. Haha! Got me a bookmark ('since you read so much,' says he) and a nice, check-patterned hairband. The dude can be a real pain sometimes but... he's got good taste (occasionally). =P

Right. Bugging e-mail time. Heehee~

I've gotta practice!!!

You know you've got it bad, when you're missing the warmth......

Wednesday, 30 December 2009

7 more daysch!

Cannot believe I'm still functioning after only sleeping 4-5 hours last night. The movie ended at 3.45am, and by the time I got to bed, it was already 4.30am. Woke up at 10am because my mom wanted to have lunch with the grandmother in PJ, spent a few hours there, and now I'm back home, wishing I could just crawl onto my bed and sleep, but can't because I need to get in some practice before heading out to KLCC for the jazz concert.


Okay, no I don't. But still... I look and feel like a zombie. O_O

The movie was good, though I was a little too tired to really appreciate it. Maybe we should go again at a more earthly time? Haha! The dad actually fell asleep during the less-exciting parts cause he's been up to his neck with work the past 3-4 weeks...

On a random note...
People do stupid things all the time, and sometimes these stupid things let our parents down and they get err... well, pissed and/or disappointed. But hey, everyone makes mistakes, and most of the time, these mistakes are due to lack of thinking on our part. As long as you realise it and apologize, I don't see why your parents won't understand that it was mere recklessness on your part and forgive you.

Cause hey, we all learn from our mistakes, no?

Right, I'm off to send someone an e-mail now so... Will update again about the concert tonight, sometime tomorrow. =)

Did I ever mention how much I dislike the whole CORS bidding thing? -_-;

Melody and Harmony in love~

Boy, I LOVE that song. =D

Can't believe I'm leaving so soon...

Tuesday, 29 December 2009

8 days =)

Feeling very happy with myself today (apart from knowing for a fact that I've gained 3kgs in the last 6 months, but that's a different story altogether O_O). Changed my strings, practiced for more than 3 hours, my shoulder didn't bother me at all the whole day, the concerto's starting to sound a lot better, did some good shopping, and I'm catching a movie with the family tonight at Mid Valley! =)

Bought a BRAND NEW pair of sports shoes (for badminton, cause my Sketchers are pretty worn out already) from Adidas, as well as a nice hoodie from ELLE. =D


Can't believe I'm going to watch Avatar 3D at 12.45am later. O_o 

It's gonna end past 3am, and I have to wake up by 11am tomorrow if I wanna practice, go do some shopping in KLCC with mommy, and catch the jazz concert David and a few others are playing in at 8.30pm, after I meet up (hopefully) with Alex and Choon Hui for dinner. 

Am I screwed or what?

Grr... so much for staying home and chillin' for the rest of my holidays huh?

Oh well, mom starts work this Saturday, so she wants to go out as much as possible I suppose... Plus, going out shopping with mommy means I don't have to spend my own money! Heehee~

Okay, I'm gonna go practice a lil' more before we head out again, so yeah...


Can't wait? I know I can't. =P

9 Dayzz~

Just my luck ey? Got the freakin' period last night after going back to the hotel. O_o

*lets out a string of swear words*

On a brighter note, I did some quality practice today after coming back from Genting. My shoulder was aching like crap after that, but I felt good. =D

Right. I'm supposed to be sleeping now so... Toodles!

just 9 more days...

Monday, 28 December 2009

10 days~

Watched Avatar this evening with the aunt, uncle, bro and sis.

I LOVED it! Gonna watch it again when I get back to Singapore! =P

Did a bit of shopping after lunch at Coffee Terrace (man, I ate A-LOT!) today. Bought a nice, casual (black) top from Giordano, and I'm now thinking of whether I should get this other top I tried on from B.U.M. =) It's a 2-piece top, and it's 20% off! Grr... So tempting!

Okay, something tells me I'm gonna go back there and get it tomorrow morning. O_o

Had a nice dinner to make up for the crappy one yesterday... and my siblings, aunt, uncle and I had fun telling the rest of the family about how much we enjoyed ourselves (watching Avatar) even though we were seated on the 2nd row. Yeah, I had to tilt my head up to look at the screen most of the time. And the movie ain't very short. It was close to 2 and a half hours long! O_o Explains why my neck felt terribly sore after the movie ended. But hey, it was worth it!

Just had an ice cream sundae and 3 pieces of nuggets. =P Boy, am I full! 

Seriously, judging by the way I've been eating... 


Put it this way, by the time I get back to Singapore, I won't believe anyone who tells me I haven't put on weight. =D


Sorry, momentary black out there... 

Hey, it's 12.30am right now so my brain's starting to malfunction. I-need-sleep!


It happens everytime,
oh it's magic when we meet,
Down on DreamStreet...


So I'll meet you down on dream street. =D

on a random note...

took this pic this morning RIGHT after I woke up. =P

Sunday, 27 December 2009

11 days...

Blergh... I canNOT believe I'm in Genting. AGAIN!! It's the flaming 3RD time I'm here in 3 WEEKS! And quite frankly speaking, I'm sick of it. Like, seriously, in a "I-never-wanna-come-here-again" kinda sick.

Oh well, at least there's WiFi at Starbucks, or I really wouldn't know what to do with my time here apart from sleeping like a pig, which is what I have been doing ever since I came back from camp. O_o Mum reckons that all the family's seen of me this holidays is an energy-drained zombie who sleeps more than 12 hours a day, and still wakes up looking half dead.

My trip here to Genting hasn't been all that nice though. Dinner was crap, we had TWELVE people at the dinner table, but the servings they gave were only enough for 3 poeple max. The FISH, oh my goodness, the FISH, was no bigger than my palm! The funniest part was, when my aunt asked the "manager": is THIS it? For TWELVE people?

The woman had the cheek to reply: well, you only ordered ONE fish.

My dad was like: okay, next time, we'll order TWELVE fishes. (we burst out laughing at that one)

NOT, that there will be a NEXT time, of course.

I actually am quite tempted to post up some of the pictures we took during dinner, but the connection over here (Starbucks) is pretty wonky, so if you're feeling abominably bored, check out the album on Facebook here.

Thing about the family is, whether or not we're having a lousy dinner in some crappy road-side stall or a scrumptious meal in a fancy hotel restaurant, we still have fun talking and cracking jokes. =) It's moments like these that I miss most when I'm in Singapore. 


And to think I'm going back so soon... 

Oh well, I can always stalk my sister's blog for whatever's going on in the family. The girl posts almost every detail on her blog. O_o 

ANYWAYS, I'm just gonna stop here. The sis wants to use my laptop, so I'll update when err...

whenever I feel like it la. =)

Friday, 25 December 2009

MPYO Picture Moments...

Picture credits go to: Amelia, Lu Ee and Jebat.

The Tribe in K Gourmet, Prince George's Park Residences.
Clockwise from left: Chris, Dylan, Lu Ee, Jebat, me, James 
K Gourmet!
From Left: Lubat =P (Lu Ee&Jeb), Me
James and I
The Tribe in Singapore!
top row: James, me, Lu Ee, Andrew
bottom row: Chris, Annabel
Holland V after Singapore concert.
from left: Annabel, me, Eben, Adelyn, James, David
YST reception for MPYO
YST reception. Someone took all the cream puffs! ;P
Adelyn and I, enjoying our coffee.

I miss camp already! March, come quick!!!

Thursday, 24 December 2009

So the Cat is Out of the Bag...

It's such a relief to not have to conceal anything anymore. I didn't think it would be difficult, but it hurt having to actually ignore what I really wanted to say/do. It hurt doubly more having to pretend not to know somebody. O_o

I'm glad that there's nothing left to hide.

Don't think we haven't noticed people talking about it behind our backs. I'm a bad actor, yes, but I'm not an idiot.

So, camp's over. Boy, I hardly felt like we actually went through it. Concert was just last night, but it already feels like it was a few days back. I don't feel like I've played in 2 concerts, hung out with friends for 10 days, gone to mamak twice... Time just flies by when you're having fun.

I was (again) room mates with Lu Ee, both in KL and Singapore. It's hard to believe that I've been in so many camps, and have been room mates with her since my first camp in PERMATA. Mosquito-infested PERMATA, which will be our next camping venue. O_o

I'm gonna miss Darby Park. 


I just woke up from a highly regenerating 4-hour nap. =D Hardly slept last night, *coughs* so yeah... Played Mafia till about 4am this morning.

Okay. Christmas dinner at my aunt's place now!!!


14 days...

wuv you <3

Wednesday, 23 December 2009

Love You Like Crazy

Concert's in about 7 hours time. Practiced a little this morning...


Could hardly fall asleep last night cause dear old dad *glares* was watching football with the volume level turned up. (My room's right behind the TV area) O_o I was tossing and turning till I couldn't stand it, decided to poke my head out of my room and tell him to turn it down.


Woke up at 8 to follow my mom and aunt to the marketplace. Had half-boiled eggs for breakfast!! And "Teh Si". Yumm...

Doing some Christmas shopping in KLCC later before rehearsals start. Alone. *sniff*

Nah, I told mom I wanted to get some things for the grandparents, aunt and uncle so... Yeah. Dunno if my siblings wanna come along... But that would mean them having to hang around KLCC with nothing to do whilst I'm in rehearsals, cause there's no way my parents are gonna come all the way to fetch them again.

See how... See how... =)

Right. I'm gonna go wash my hair...


I can't tell you how else it would've turned out, cause I can't imagine what it'd be like for me without... yeah. I'm sorry if I led you on or anything. I really didn't mean to. Sorry...

Monday, 21 December 2009

How Do I Say...

How's that girl lookin'
pretty cool huh? I Think She's fine
너무 설레여 떨리는 내두손
가득히 맺히는 땀망울
마주보기 조차 힘든 나의사랑
그대 너무나도 사랑스런 모습

[혜성](Yeah~~ No no~ No baby~
Oh~~ Baby Oh Yeah~)
[신화]How Do I say I Like You
How do I say I love You

[민우]어색한 듯 침묵은 흐르지만
맘은 달라 가슴은 더 뛰고
터질듯 한 내 맘은 널 원하는데 Yeah
하지만 내 입술은 부끄러워

[동완]말 한마디 건네보지 못한 채
너의 눈만 빤히 바라보다
[혜성]떨리는 내 맘 너에게 들킬까봐
고만하며 고개 숙인 채 난

[신화]How do I say I like you Baby
[혜성]어떻게 이런 내 맘 전할까요?
[신화]How do I say I love you Baby,
[민우]I just want to love you Baby

[동완]그런채로 시간은 더 흘러가고
가슴속은 더 타들어 가고
어떤 애기든 너에게 해야만 해
이대로 너 일어설지도 몰라

[민우]말 한마디 건네보지 못한 채
너의 눈만 빤히 바라보다
[혜성]떨리는 내 맘 너에게 들킬까봐
고만하며 고개 숙인 채 난

[신화]How do I say I like you Baby
[혜성]어떻게 이런 내 맘 전할까요?
[신화]How do I say I love you Baby,
[동완]I just want to love you Baby

[전진](하~~ 어떻게 말을하지?
왜 이렇게 말이 않나오는 거야?)
이대로 시간이 멈췄으면
내가 좀더 멋진말을 떠올릴 수 있게
너를 향한 내속의 사랑
I Need You (어!) I Want Your Love

[에릭]잠깐 내말을 들어줘
조금만 있음 생각 날 듯도 한데
앞이 캄캄 이거 나 원참 (Slow Down)
무슨말을 할까? 가슴에다 묻어둔 말
I'm in love with You
목안에 맴도는 말은 아마도 It's you,
전할 수 없음에 그말 입안에 머물다
또 가슴안에 삼켜

[혜성]Baby!~ 사실은 너무 행복해
너와 마주 앉은 지금
Stay Stay 조금만 기다려줘
이젠 내 입술을 바라봐

[신화]How do I say 난 널 사랑해
[혜성]오랫동안 너만을 바래왔어
[신화]How do I say 난 너를 원해
[혜성]오직 내안엔 너 뿐인 걸
[신화]How do I say 난 널 사랑해
[혜성]오랫동안 너만을 바래왔어
[신화]How do I say 난 너를 원해
[혜성]이잰 니 맘은 말해줄래
나를 니안에 받아줄개


Right there...

How's that girl lookin'? pretty cool huh? I think she's fine 

With a handful of sweat in my shaking hands 
It is heavenly to face each other, my love you are such a lovely sight

The silence passes by uncomfortably and my mind is unsettled, my heart is beating 
My mind is full to bursting and I want you, yeah, but my lips are shy

Without having to say anything to you, just watching your eyes 
until you notice my nervous heartbeat, I can only keep my head drooped 

How do I say I like you baby, how do I say what’s on my mind? 
How do I say I love you baby, just I want to love you baby

The time ticks by and my mind grows more crowded 
I have to tell you what’s on my mind, 

Without having to say anything to you, just watching your eyes 

until you notice my nervous heartbeat, I can only keep my head drooped

How do I say I like you baby, how do I say what’s on my mind? 
How do I say I love you baby, just I want to love you baby

(Ha~ How do I say this? Why won’t the words come out?) 

I want to stop time so I can make this sound better 
The love for you that’s in me, I need you (uh!) I want your love

Listen to me for a moment, if you just stay for a second, it’ll come to me 
My vision has become blurry (Slow down) 
What should I say? The words that are branded on my heart, I’m in love with you 
The words that are caught in my throat- It's you 
I can’t let out what I’ve been holding in my mouth and leave it in my heart 

Truthfully, I’m in utter bliss when I feel your warmth 
Stay, stay, wait just a while for me, read my lips

How do I say I love you, I searched for you for a long time 
How do I say I want you, you’re the only one for me 
How do I say I love you, I searched for you for a long time 
How do I say I want you, now will you tell me what's on your mind? 
Will you accept me?

Just a little something I haven't listened to for awhile. I may be majoring in (predominantly) Classical music, so sue me if I still swoon over nice, romantic Korean songs. =)

보고 싶어...

And the fun continues tomorrow~!!!

Saturday, 19 December 2009


In Singapore O_o

Okay so technically I'm supposed to be practicing right now, but I gave up after what... 25 minutes-ish?

*I can hear my mom screaming at me now* =P

I'm tired, alright? It's camp now, so I haven't been getting much sleep the entire week, which explains why I've got these huge-ass bags under my eyes right now, and I'm also conserving energy for the MPYO performance that's due to start in 2 hours.

Okay, maybe the "conserving energy" part is bullshit but

*rudely interrupted by James' call announcing the arrival of fellow MPYO members*

yeah, I'm tired.

Have to do a lil' socialising in about 20 minutes so I'm gonna stop here. To be frank, the only reason I decided to blog was because I had nothing else to do to kill time.


This blog is SO dying...

Sunday, 13 December 2009

The Epitome of Stupidity and Random-ness

It's a Sunday afternoon and I feel like posting up something superbly (stupid and) random =)


I reckon I must have slept too much last night. Explains why I'm not functioning this afternoon. O_o My coordination's all effed-up. Was "trying" to practice earlier, but for some weird and unexplainable reason, my arms and fingers just wouldn't coordinate... I shall give it another shot later. 

Camp's tomorrow!!!


Oh what the fudge*%?!!&*@$?!!!!! I haven't packed yet!



Saturday, 12 December 2009


I'm tired...

Really tired...

Now I'm REALLY wondering if I should've just...

You know what?


Gonna go for camp on Monday...

We'll see how things go from there

Tuesday, 8 December 2009


I'm counting the minutes...


Singaporeans will be leaving tonight. The Genting trip was fun... Went on rides I'd never get to go on if I went with my bro/sis. Finally, I'll be relieved of my tour guide duties...

And I can PRACTICE!!

I'll miss them though.

Ok, Guan Yu's the one who asked me to say that. =P

Oh dang, I should take a look at the MPYO parts later. =) Knowing me, with my abominably horrific sight-reading skills, I'd screw up ONE way or another if I don't prepare well. O_o

Driving to KLCC!!!

On a random note:

"Crash and Burn"
Savage Garden

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face the day

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

'Cause there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breath again

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

LOOOOOOVE this song. =D

Friday, 4 December 2009

It Feels Good

To be home...

Got back a few days ago, actually. But I've been too occupied with showing Raymond and the Singaporeans around that I haven't even had much of a chance to breathe. =)

I realise that forever is in your eyes...

46 hours


Watching Jian Wang in concert tomorrow at DFP...

Then it's Genting again the day after!!!! Awesome-ness ay? I'm gonna drop dead when we get back. =)

I'm going to get some rest now...

Toodles, people!

I MIGHT get a haircut tomorrow as well... 

we'll see, we'll see...