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Saturday, 31 October 2009


You OBVIOUSLY don't care, so, I'm not gonna bother from now on.

I feel like a wreck. My fingers were freezing up in the practice room earlier so I had to stop for awhile. Dunno why, but YST felt colder than usual tonight.

Waited for Guan Yu to get back before heading out for my very late dinner with her and James. Were supposed to join Jason and the rest, but I didn't feel like drinking tonight so we just ate on our own and headed back to PGP.

I finally decided to spill the beans, but only 2 people in the whole wide world knows (you know who you are) and I intend to keep it that way. =D

Gonna wake up to practice in the morning tomorrow... MIGHT (it's highly unlikely, but...) go look-see-look-see Halloween Celebration in NAFA. That's IF I'm satisfied enough with my practice. O_o

There's not much to update about. There's some Symposium thing going on right now, so a few of our classes has been cancelled. I am (finally) reasonably satisfied with my variation, and will have to get started on the remainder of my assignments/projects, soon.

Honestly, someone PLEASE slap me.

Wednesday, 28 October 2009

We Could Be In Love...

by Lea Salonga and Brad Kane

I haven't heard this song in awhile... And I realise that, I still love it. =D

Be still my heart

Lately its mind is on it's own
It would go far and wide
Just to be near you

Even the stars
Shine a bit bright I've noticed
When you're close to me
Still it remains a mystery

Anyone who's seen us
Knows what's going on between us
It doesn't take a genius
To read between the lines
And it's not just wishful thinking
Or only me who's dreaming
I know what these are symptoms of
We could be in love

I ask myself why
I sleep like a baby through the night
Maybe it helps to know
You'll be there tomorrow

Don't open my eyes
I'll wake from the spell I'm under
Makes me wonder how tell me how
I could live without you now

And what about the laughter
The happy ever after
Like voices of sweet angels
Calling out our names
And it's not just wishful thinking
Or only me who's dreaming
I know what these are symptoms of
We could be in love

All my life I have dreamed of this
But i could not see your face
Don't ask why two such distant stars
Can fall right into place

Anyone who's seen us
Knows what's going on between us
It doesn't take a genius
To read between the lines
And it's not just wishful thinking
Or only me who's dreaming
I know what these are symptoms of
We could be in love

Tuesday, 27 October 2009


Can anything ever feel as right as it feels wrong?

My guess is: yes, it's possible.

But being possible doesn't make it any easier. Just complicates things. Especially if one doesn't quite know what to make of the situation. Which kinda sucks.

Okay, not "kinda" sucks. It sucks BIG time.

In any case, THIS is just for laughs.

And so is THIS.

Enjoy, people =D

You BOTH don't mind being butts of jokes right? 


Friday, 23 October 2009

Oh Dear...

I thank goodness that I'm not (I hope) plagued with this. =)

This is for you babe.

It is hard dealing with someone who you really like, but that person doesn't like you back. You try everything in your power to get them to notice you, but it doesn't work out. Don't be discouraged when it doesn't work. That just means he is not the right one for you.

Here's the thing:

1- When you find out that someone who you have a crush on doesn't like you back, don't cry over him because most likely he is not thinking about you.
  1. 2- If you feel depressed, go and hang out with friends to take your mind away from the situation.

    3- Go home and either watch movies, read a book, or play table games.

    4- Talk to someone about the situation to get it out of your system. Don't try to bottle it inside. It's not healthy

    If that still doesn't work, gimme a call, give me his number and I'll scream at him for you.

Thursday, 22 October 2009

Steel Yourselves People...

Pictures from yesterday =)

credits: Tarrant Kwok

Yong Siew Toh Conservatory of Music, National University of Singapore
Tony's Camera Locker =)

Some peeps from Eusoff Hall were doing a gig in Muchie Monkey's...

Lead Vocals
One of Tarrant's random shots. I didn't even KNOW he took this picture

YST entrance?
Keyboard Lab
That's Guan Yu and I walking, like Tarrant instructed us to. =P
LOVE the colour
Some Thai fellows posing for the camera. =)

La la la~

It's almost 2am and I can't fall asleep, so I figured I might as well blog to tire myself out. O_o

I hope it works. I hate it when I'm bodily and mentally tired but...







Had class as usual today, then went out for a bit with Tarrant (he was my senior back in MCKL). Took him around YST, and apparently, he was really satisfied cause he managed to get some really nice shots with his fancy-pansy camera. ;)

I think there are a couple of ugly ones with me in it though... I shall post them on Facebook (and here, if I find the time) once he's done "processing" them.

Had dinner at Munchie Monkey's, where I bumped into Sabina, Budi, Jonathan an Raymond. He (Tarrant) bought me dinner (THANK YOU!) because (according to him) I'd been a good tour guide *chokes* and provided him with "satisfactory" shooting err... subjects, if that's how you term it. O_o

I'm sorry. I'm actually typing this with my eyes half open and my brain working it's minimum, which is VERY close to... well, not working at all really. I'm just typing things off the top of my head, which I seldom do, cause I usually think them through beforehand.

Unfortunately, I'm not in the right frame of mind to do that now.

You know, I MIGHT just be able to fall asleep now.


Tuesday, 20 October 2009

Has Never Felt So Satisfied

I've fallen in love with Beethoven's Symphony No 7 all over again...

Yes, the concert rocked. Like, almost everyone from YST, as well as quite a number in the audience, stood up to cheer and clap when they finished. Awesome stuff. The experience was... just so darn refreshing. And it makes me feel good, like I made the right choice, studying music. =)

Oooh, not to mention we managed to take photos as well!

Well, we only took pics with one of the orchestra members (Matthew Muckey, trumpet) but we only managed to see him, so...

That's Erik with Matt

Matt and I

Guan Yu and Matt

And it's sleep time people! 



A good orchestra. =D

Went for the New York Phil Concert last night. They played the Brahms Violin Concerto with Frank Peter Zimmermann and Mahler's Symphony No 1.

Wynne, Guan Yu and I were left in awe after it ended. The fourth movement of the symphony, in particular, left us breathless. I couldn't think straight for a few solid minutes, just kept on clapping as hard as I could. Haha. Oh, and we've sorta developed this crush on one of the members in the orchestra.


Haha. He's cute, and plays well too so...

Violinist was fantastic. I don't fancy the concerto much, but the third movement was insane. The orchestra colaborated so well with the soloist AND the conductor.

I wish I could say the same for our Masterclass earlier that day (Beethoven 7th)... A lot of us weren't taking it seriously, some even coming in 2 minutes before the masterclass was due to start. And all he did was try to get us to play in tempo and in rhythm. Like, what a waste right? And I felt so embarrassed whenever he repeated himself (which he did, quite often). I'm surprised that we got as far as half the first movement. Luckily we weren't doing the 3rd movement with him, or we'd just be repeating the first 2 bars again and again and again... O_o

But still, I learnt a lot. Like how dangerous rests can be cause you can't hear if they're not together. Like, of course we knew that, but I bet no one's ever thought of them (rests) that way before. And I heard a complete difference from our usual rehearsal when he ran through a part of the 1st movement with us for the FIRST time.

Anyhoo, gonna watch them again tonight! This time we're gonna see if it's possible to get some pictures!!! *beams*


It's an all-Beethoven affair tonight! *squeals*

Sunday, 18 October 2009

It's Not So Bad After All

I had fun these 3 days. Went for a "reading session" with the OMM today. Did Mahler, Bernstein and Star Wars. Heehee.

The Mahler was okay, I liked the melody and chord progressions he used in certain parts of the first and the last movements. Bernstein was...


Well, for me, anyways. Because I love the piece to bits and it's the first time I've played it with an orchestra, so I literally had goosebumps when it came to my favourite parts. It's very different from listening to a recording and playing it yourself. And I was playing the first violin part, so I got to play my number 1 favourite section (cha-cha andantino). Can't describe it in words, but the experience of playing it was just...

Lets just say it felt real good =)

I reckon I'm gonna come back here early next year so I can play in this concert. I mean, we'll be playing it in the MPYO soon (I hope), but I'm not in the first violins so this is like... Golden opportunity? Lol.

Geez, I'm crapping again. Well, in my defence, I haven't been sleeping early, which I should, before my bodily functions go haywire and sleeping late becomes a permanent setting or something. O_o

Ooohh. I had a VERY nice dinner earlier. James and I (we were the only ones who went for OMM cause Raymond and Linh decided to give it a pass) had dinner near the rehearsal place cause we didn't wanna have to eat in NUS. A little more expensive than what I usually have, but since I haven't been having breakfast, I'm not really going over my budget. We haven't even been going out, so...

Which reminds me, I HAVE to get the rest of my contact lens package tomorrow! I was supposed to get it yesterday, but I was too exhausted.

Things could be worse...
I'm just glad I've got nothing to lose...
We'll see...

I'm in a better position than I thought. Heehee

Wednesday, 14 October 2009

Well, This Is As Good As It's Gonna Get

But I miss it...

With all my heart, I miss it...

But perhaps it is for my own good. I can't afford to be stuck with...


Practice full=day tomorrow!

Dang. I'm supposed to get the remainder of my contact lens "package".

Bleh. Ill go get them tomorrow evening after I'm done with my stuff...

Orchestra on Thursday...

Oh, just as a small update, I spent this year's Moon Cake Festival eating semi-mouldy moon cake in James' room with him and Jeremy. Spent the next few hours chatting about random stuff. =D

Time to sleep folks!

Friday, 2 October 2009

Don't Push It

Because I'm right at the edge of the hill...

Hmm... I need to practice my orchestra parts. Placement audition on the 26th and I just got the parts today. Studio class next week and I don't wanna make an embarrassment outta myself.

Have to prepare.

I'll get the recordings and full score from the library tomorrow. I just checked, and they're still available. Beats me why nobody's taken them yet. I'd better grab them before it's too late...

I'm unconsciously isolating myself these days and I have no idea why. I've been so wrapped up in my own thoughts that sometimes I wind up somewhere or doing something that I don't remember wanting/intending to do. Weird. Then occasionally I have these gaps in my memory that I can't recall what I did unless I really retrace my steps and THEN I'll remember.

I think time is playing tricks on my mind. I could swear that it was just Tuesday a few minutes ago, yet it's already the end of the week. I've got to go for an SSO concert tonight (they're playing Bruckner), have a full-day practice and do my laundry on Saturday, go for a gig practice on Sunday, then it's back to a Monday again. These things fly by so fast that I don't feel like I had my full share of 24 hours. I mean, I don't sleep more than 5-6 hours at night, I wake up at 7 every morning (except maybe Fridays), I don't have THAT many classes and yet... 

Garr... And I thought time flew by when I was in college. It's even faster over here! 

Anyhoo, I'd just like to stress again that I don't, and will never acknowledge a relationship that's based on a truck full of lies. Like, are you two BLIND or something? Do you think you can stick your head into the ground like an ostrich and pretend that everything's fine and dandy? Here I am, thousands of miles away, and you can still find a way to bug me. You're BOTH my friends, I care about the BOTH of you, I've heard BOTH sides of the story, and I've pretty much concluded that BOTH of you have your faults, and I've told you BOTH what I think.

So why the hell are you asking me to choose a side??

Why has it gone back to the Primary school days when we solved problems by threatening friends saying: if you friend (said as: fren) him then I don't "fren" you anymore.

Like, what the hell? 

You've got issues with each other, then solve it amongst yourselves! As much as I'm your friend, it's not fair to drag me into this. Quite frankly speaking, I couldn't give two hoots about what's happening between you two. I mean, what's your love life got to do with me? Okay, it's fine if you wanna tell me about "the" problem, but why the heck did you both turn around and stab me by telling me that the outcome of your problems with each other will result in my not being friends with one of you. Does that even make sense?

Go sort it out on your own. I've told you what I think, and that's as far as I can/will interfere.

And if you still think the same way after you've read this, then my advice, is to go back to kindergarten, learn your ABCs and watch "Barney and Friends".

I love you you love me, your love life ain't concerning me.

You love him, he loves you, why drag me into this too?

Do you ever see ME running to anyone when I have a problem? If you're kind enough to ask, and if I trust you, sure. But apart from that, I keep them to myself. Think about that, and see if you think you've been nice to me.