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Tuesday, 31 March 2009

Confucius, Buddha and Jesus??

No, I'm not gonna blog about my post title. All you people need to know is, some Korean Missionary Singers were at my college and they were good at what they did.


Anyways, I'm debating whether to get my Macbook and phone here locally, or wait till I go over. According to a friend, it's cheaper over at Singapore, and I'd have to get a Singapore phone line anyways.


Was caught in an awkward situation earlier. We were doing the f*cking law question, so don't dare anyone misunderstand or I'll give you hell.

Just because someone gets bad results, doesn't mean they're stupid.

Just because two people spend time together, doesn't mean there's a scandal.

Stop Ass-U-Me--ing, because it's only gonna make U look like an Ass to Me. =)

Monday, 30 March 2009


Medical check ups=needles+blood+me screaming


I hate needles.

I'm dreading the med-check up cause I haven't had one in more than a decade. Seriously. And I haven't had a jab since "BCG" in standard 6. I'm SO not looking forward to letting needles pierce through my skin.


Got the "info Packet" today. I'm gonna be under the tutelage of Mr Alexander Souptel. Liu Jian seems happy that I got him for my teacher =)

My sis can't wait for me to get out of her hair.

My bro seems to think that going to Singapore means getting rich. (Don't ask me why. his brains are wired wrongly)

Parents are giving me all sorts of advice. The usual: work hard, be focussed, study smart et cetera...

Grandma's hinting that if I don't graduate, she'll disown me or something.

They are, also telling me to be prepared to slave my ass off. But that, at least, I'm pretty prepared for.

At least, I think I am...

Having said all that,

Would I be considered deranged if I were to be excited about going?

Saturday, 28 March 2009


I couldn't sleep last night. Well, mainly because I was semi-afraid that I'd wake up the next morning and realise it was merely a dream...

Looks like my worries about that earlier dream with regards to "someone" saying I don't stand a chance was futile, no?

And I'd like to thank everyone for their wishes, advice and support. =)

But most of all, I owe all of it to my friends and family for having faith in me.

Special thanks to my mom who refused to give up on me when I had absolutely no will to continue. Love you mom. =)

I cried after the phone call confirming my place and scholarship in the conservatory. Tears of joy though, in the midst of a lot of laughter. =)

Call me crazy but yeah... I was really that happy.

Friday, 27 March 2009

Singapore, Here I Come!

The last half an hour has got to be one of the most-


THE most nerve-wrecking half an hour of my entire life!

See, throughout the whole afternoon, I had been very unsettled as Jebat had told me that a couple of them had got accepted... And I hadn't heard anything yet.

Needless to say, I was really uneasy and nervous. My stomach felt like it had a stampede of wild boars trampling around.

A few hours later, Jebat informed me that James had got in as well. I started to panic, and all hope seemed in vain. And THEN he msg-ed me and congratulated me. But for what, he didn't mention. Being the blurcase that I was, I asked him what he was talking about, then he said that Audrey had sent us an e-mail congratulating us on our acceptance to NUS.

I swear to God, I was hyperventilating as I ran all the way to Claris to check my e-mail.

Here's the thing: e-mail was from Audrey, not NUS.

Mom didn't wanna get my hopes up. She even said that Audrey may have made a mistake, intending to send it to James, but sent it to me instead (he and I have the same surname). Heck, I think my mom was more nervous than I am. =P

So we decided to call NUS directly and...

Jeng Jeng Jeng...

I got accepted!

We went into a calling frenzy and told my dad, grandma, aunt, Liu Jian etc... They're all really happy. I'm still in a state of disbelief though... Guess the news hasn't sunk in yet!

But really, I owe it all to those who has supported me and guided me. You know who you are!

P/S: looks like I'll get my new phone and MacBook sooner than I expected! =D

One of "Those" nights

Took me a gazillion years to fall asleep last night. And when I finally DID sleep, it was time to send my siblings to school.


Guess it was one of those nights where one needs to be held whilst drifting off to sleep?

Where were you when I needed you most?

Gah... There is no room for regret.

Came across this quote when I was on the plane, flying back to KL:

Love- Elusive for some, Eternal for others.

How I wish I belonged in the latter group...


And I'm not even joking. Seriously. The LAST thing I want now (as I told Kim last night) is to have some unworthy distraction.

But then again, it's what we always say, no?


Monday, 23 March 2009

I'm back

Wish I wasn't, though. I was kept so busy in Bangkok that I hardly had time to think. Hence, my mind was at peace. I didn't have to worry about practice, homework, studying, and a host of other things I occupy my mind with when I'm not physically busy. The shopping, walking and swimming sufficiently tires me so I can sleep without difficulty.

Got loadsa stuff from Bangkok. Some are gonna have to wait till the May camp to get the souvenirs, or when we go for a concert or something. =)

I also have the L.E. Hard Rock Cafe (Bangkok) t-shirt. Will be wearing it to college tomorrow! Got a new skirt, a few tops, pants, underwear (=P) etc...

Pictures may, or may not be posted on my blog. Most of you who read my blog have my facebook anyways, so most likely it'd be on Facebook rather than here, cause it takes a million years to upload pictures on Blogger. =)

Camp (which I attended right before flying off to Bangkok), was alright. I enjoyed playing Beethoven's 5th (4th movement), as well as E.T. Too bad I couldn't stay till the concert. Would've been fun. I miss sectionals too *winks at Kah Yan and Lu Ee*, though I played like crap myself, most of the time anyways. I spent a lot less time preparing for this camp. Only looked through the scores in the morning of the first day of camp. =P

But that's no excuse. I need to improve my sight-reading.

Can't wait for the next camp though. I swear I'll prepare better for the next one, so I don't give Kah Yan a heart-attack. =D

And yes, I'm coming for the May camp. 100%

A Levels finish 26th May. =)

P/S: I wish you could see how much I'm laughing at myself now

Wednesday, 18 March 2009

Heart of Gold?

Mine's not, unfortunately. I wish it was... Cause right now, it's killing me.

I'd always managed to forgive, it's the forgetting part that takes a f*cking long time.

And I'm f*cking sick of it.

Saturday, 14 March 2009

"Soon" and "Let Me Be Your Wings"

From the Cartoon-Movie: Thumbelina

I still love this movie, though I've watched it about a gazillion times already. =)


I know there's someone
somewhere Someone...
who's sure to find me soon

After the rain goes
there are rainbows
I'll find my rainbow soon

Soon it won't be just pretend
Soon a happy ending

Love, can you hear me
If you're near me
Sing your song
Sure and strong

And soon

"Let Me Be Your Wings"

Let me be your wings
Let me be your only love
Let me take you far beyond the stars

Let me be your wings
Let me lift you high above
Everything we're dreaming of will soon be ours

Anything that you desire
Anything at all
Everyday I'll take you higher
And I'll never let you fall

Let me be your wings
Leave behind the world you know
For another world of wondrous things
We'll see the universe and dance on Saturn's rings

Fly with me and I will be your wings

Anything that you desire
Anything at all (Anything at all)
Everyday I'll take you higher
And I'll never let you fall

You will be my wings (Let me be your wings)
You will be my only love (Get ready for another world of wondrous things)
Wondrous things are sure to happen

We'll see the universe and dance on Saturn's rings

Heaven isn't too far

Heaven is where you are

Stay with me
And let me be your wings

Seriously, I salute anyone who can sing these two songs... They are, by far, in my top 10 favourite Cartoon-Movie songs. =)

Yes, I'm still a child at heart. So sue me.

Thursday, 12 March 2009


*lets a wave of satisfaction wash over*



Got our AS Levels results this afternoon. =)

I got a "B" overall for Economics, and an "A" for Eng Lit. But I got a "C" for the Alias Grace paper, so I'm retaking it. That's the only paper I was horrified about. But then everyone who took the paper got no better than me, so... *grins*

I'm a happy girl =)

Carmen was hyperventilating next to me during Law, which resulted in Mrs Dharma letting us out early to "face our doom". She was laughing in an evil manner when we told her how nervous we were, and said that she was having a private joke with herself when we asked her why she was laughing. O_o

Anyways, hopefully I can get out of the house these 2 days. I'm absolutely dying to do SOMETHING! I'd understand if they wanna go ahead with the picnic (the BC thingy), but I could still bug my dad into letting me play badminton with my bro or something. Maybe I can invite Bernard and Chicken along... Hmm...

And yeah, I've got an arsenal of Photos that I've taken since Christmas and haven't loaded them. Will get to it once I come back from Bangkok.

I dunno if it's because you read my previous blog post, but thanks for talking to me again. It was a little awkward, but okay nonetheless. I'm happy.

Oh, and congratulations! (you know what I'm talking about =))

Wednesday, 11 March 2009


Sounds like I'm about to do one of those ridiculously long posts about the topic above huh? Nah... I don't have time to do that. I gotta finish up whatever I haven't done for Lit, then read up a little for Law...

And Alex, you set your knowledge a little too much through movies. Getting a quote out of "StarDust". Honestly, what were you thinking??

Went for the Hamlet screening on Sunday, and it was good. Probably because we were laughing so hard at the end (though there was really nothing to laugh about) cause, you see, Choon Hui, Alex and I have acted out the last few scenes in class. But right at the end, where Hamlet lies dying, saying his last words to Horatio, we remembered how Choon Hui and Alex did it... very emotionally... FULL of feeling...

Holding Hands...

Looking DAMN gay...

No offence Choon Hui, but it was really funny.

Went to Pavillion right after that. Didn't get anything much though, a few CDs... Cuz we didn't wanna splurge too much before Bangkok. =D

Right... Time for... *groans* Heaney...

Now that I've come to my senses (not completely, but getting there) I can vaguely (VERY vaguely) see the reasoning behind what you're doing. Intentionally or not, I deserve it. I looked back, and realised what a b*tch I've been, and I don't blame you for treating me this way. Really. I'm not gonna beg for your forgiveness (I haven't stooped as low as THAT), but I do hope, in the near future, you can bring yourself to acknowledging our friendship. I firmly believe that, despite our differences, since we were friends before it all started, it's not impossible to be friends again. I had my reasons for doing what I did (they may not have been fair to you), but if I were given the chance again, my actions would have been no different.

I'm sorry.

Monday, 9 March 2009

Effing Sick

It's depressing, really...

And of course, it doesn't help with the extra knowledge that I can't enjoy myself this weekend with a bunch of friends that I haven't seen for A-G-E-S thanks to me "fong-fei-gei"-ing a few times because of my auditions, JUST because I'm a f*cking girl, and therefore my parents have the extra burden of worrying about my "safety".

It's a f*cking picnic, and it'll be with 4 other guys and 2 other girls. IN a place where there'll probably be a lotta other people around.

AND, if they're gonna be so paranoid over my possibly getting kidnapped/raped/killed/into an accident, why not just F*cking LOCK-ME-UP-AT-HOME so that I'll be safe when (God Forbid) the sky decides to collapse when I'm on the way to college.

It's funny they only worry when it suits them. I don't see them being so paranoid when I drive to college, or to Liu Jian's place, or when I'm sending my siblings up and down, to and fro from school/tuition. It's easier for me to kill myself when I'm driving rather than out on a picnic, no? This SO reminds me of Emma, twisting reality to suit her purposes.

Well, I'm not gonna be "under-their-wing" for much longer, so what's the point of treating me like I'm some stupid, naive, innocent, compliant 9-year-old??

Sure, you worry. But like I said, I'll effing report every hour, or even every half hour. It's doing something different, and we're doing it because a friend's going to have a major operation overseas. And it just eats me from the inside and out that they're gonna have fun without me, and it was MY suggestion in the first place.

Yes, I'm ranting. But I'm only doing it because, frankly speaking, I've got no one else to rant to. I may sound like an effing spoilt brat, but that's only because I rarely get the chance to get out of the house. Haven't walked past the cinema in weeks, and I can't even remember the last movie I watched.

Have I ever told you that I hate my life?

Because I do.

I really, REALLY do.

Don't get me wrong, I still love my parents. But I just wish they could be a little more accomodating, a tad bit more understanding, and worry a little less, because I'm not a little kid anymore.

To the BC guys, if anyone of you read this, just go on with the plans and have fun kay? We'll go out some other time when my parents decide to let me out of my cage. Tell Shiuann I'm sorry I can't make it.

I'm gonna stop now because I'm so depressed I can't even think about what to ty-- think.

Oh, and I have still yet to look through the March camp scores.

Thanks A LOT for making my life SO enjoyable.
*prays someone notices the sarcasm*

Saturday, 7 March 2009

Happy Birthday!!

Heyya Handsome!

Sorry for the late wishes, but anyways...

Happy 17th Birthday!!!
Come by MCKL some day then we can all go pork noodles, just like old times yea!


Them torturous brackets and wires shall be removed from my teeth by October. Finally, I can eat without worrying about puncturing the corners of my mouth.

Thursday, 5 March 2009


Something really amusing happened. It's so stupid that I simply HAD to post it up.

See, it was raining when I got back home from college so I didn't take my bag out of the back seat cuz I didn't wanna get wet. (The porch on the right side - where the Nissan is always parked- only covers the front half of the car) or so I thought.

After fetching my sis from her school, (it had stopped raining by that time) so I figured I wanna get my bag out.

To my horror, my bag wasn't there!

Well, turns out, I was so distracted talking to my mum over the phone, I actually carried my bag all the way up to my room instead of dumping it somewhere in the living room (which is what I usually do).

To think I was panicking about the wildest possibilities. I thought someone had stolen my bag! But it didn't make sense, since I ALWAYS lock the car after I get out of it. I even asked my maid about it, which resulted in her laughing at me and saying that "didn't you know you brought it upstairs with you??"

I still doubted it, until I saw it sprawled on my bedroom floor.

Which, at the sight of it, I burst out laughing.

Thank you Lord, for letting me have a circle of friends (not including YOU) whom I can always confide in.

Nothing much going on really. I went for a concert on Sunday with the Tribe. Had lunch at Nando's for the 4678986554322134th time, then laughed at the pianist's funny gestures after the performance. (oh, btw, does anyone have the recording of Dvorak's Roman Carnival??)

College was fine. Lit is becoming more stressful. Law's alright, cause I can actually remember the things she lectures us about. Econs is a goner, I've given up on listening to her altogether. I'd rather study on my own than waste my time pretending to understand what she's saying. Seriously, most of what she says sounds Greek to me. I can understand the ones which requires common-sense, but really... I'm not getting any input from her output. 0% efficiency, really.

Ha-ha. That sounds almost as lame as the jokes Bernard comes up with.

I miss the first 2 months of college last year. The endless badminton sessions, the talks, the hurried lunches...

It's all in the past. We all have such different schedules that it's lucky if we can even greet each other. But, we all know there's no way to turn back time.

But a girl can dream, no?

This line made a huge impression on me after I watched "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button" a few nights ago. Benjamin was getting a haircut and he voiced his fear at the thought of losing the people he loves. The old lady's reply (Sorry, I forgot her name) :

"Benjamin, we're meant to lose the people we love... How else would we know how important they are to us?"

But losing them is a huge expense, isn't it?

Wednesday, 4 March 2009


you're some missunderstanding dude (for want of a better term than what I've got in my head, which is-bastard)who listens to effing rumours posted around by people who have prejudices against me. So much for friends, huh? You're barely treating me as an average classmate. And courtesy of your treatment of me, I keep wondering what is it I said/did wrong.

Thanks a lot.

For bugging the life outta me.

Dunno what's running through your head now, but just quit messing mine up. I've got enough to cope with without having you haunting my effing nightmares.