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Saturday, 28 February 2009

What Should I Do?

I had a nasty dream last night... I dreamt that my audition hadn't passed, and when I DID go for the audition, Mr.X (I won't mention who) was one of the panel. I played well, despite the nerves of having to play in front of him.

Then, he later approached me and asked if I have a back-up plan and that he thinks I don't stand a chance. O_o

What d'ya make of that huh?

I woke up feeling all dejected and depressed... Then I realised it was just an effing dream. But then, I started thinking: what if I really don't stand a chance? What if the dream is a preparation for the answer I'm gonna get?

I think I preferred the dreams about walking into my own coffin. And I'm not joking.

In any case, my parents and I have already accepted the fact that there's a high probability I won't get in. Therefore, I'm going ahead with LTCL for piano and ATCL for violin. I need something to work towards or I'll just rot. Dad wants me to start teaching again, but I don't think I wanna do that. Not if he intends for me to drive all the way to Sungai Long to have to stand the nonsense of a handful of students.

Haven't got the pieces laid down though. Mom reckons I should work on strengthening my fingers and correct my bad wrist posture before I learn any of the LT pieces. Ah... Berringer and Czerny shall be my best pals for now.

I'd most probably still end up doing a Bach and a Mozart. =D

Aunt wants me to try Beethoven though. O_o"

On top of all that, I've still got my college work and studying to catch up on. I'm terribly behind in Econs and Law. But I have pretty much covered whatever I lost out for Law, since Mei Xin lent me her notes and Choon Hui went through them with me. Eng Lit's as if I never left, thanks to the reading I've done consistently, but Econs... Oh boy, I didn't understand a single word that was coming out of her (Mrs Chiu's) mouth.

To make things worse, I've got 2 Lit essays due Monday and a Law essay due Wednesday. Someone shoot me please?

Is it a crime for one to wish for security and protection?

Friday, 27 February 2009


It starts with a drizzle... to the regular rainfall. Gradually, it becomes a steady downpour. Then emotions start getting mixed up and it worsens to a thunderstorm.

It ends with exhaustion and soreness.

Tuesday, 24 February 2009


I should change my blogskin soon no? It's been looking really morbid for awhile now.

Looked through some sun-shiny blogskins earlier, but somehow I still find myself attracted to the more dark-coloured layouts. O_o

I'm not a very bright person, to be honest. Down to my dress sense, it's always plain and simple, and in monotoned colours. I have brightly coloured clothes, but I just don't wear them. =D

Very VERY inspiring talk in college earlier. President of the Bar Council, Malaysia- Datuk Ambiga delivered a speech and answered a few questions with regards to the Malaysian Constitution.

I won't put in details, lest there be trouble, but I give you two words:

She rocks!

Growing a beard waiting for OB pics to be uploaded. Hurry up, people!

Monday, 23 February 2009

It's Over...

Finally... My audition has come and gone.

T'was not really a live audition. Video-recorded. O_o Something tells me I should've gone down to Singapore to audition maybe?
Anyways, I've been doing some deep thinking. Nurlina said some things the other time when she came to visit that really struck a chord where I was concerned. And I think she's right.

OB Night pictures are taking a long time to upload on Facebook. So here's a preview:

The 0803 people, both science and arts.
The girls

Our table.

Saturday, 21 February 2009

OB Night...

It's pure cruelty, I tell you. I came back home drained, exhausted and sleepy, yet I have to wake up at 8 and take the role of a clerk for 2 hours so that my aunt can do her usual marketting.

I'm still half awake as I'm typing this.

Anyways, it was fun last night. Though I was getting a little pissed before I left. See, the thing was supposed to start at 6.30 or so. I didn't get to leave the house till 7, thanks to my oh-so-responsible father who decided that he'd get Uncle Ti to send me there instead.

Uncle Ti finishes work at 6pm

He works all the way in PJ

It's extra jam on friday nights

Nuff said

Thankfully, I wasn't all THAT late. I came in just as the first performance was going on, so I really didn't miss much.

A few bands, 3 dance numbers, a "Copa Cabana" skit, lucky draws (Congrats to Kah Kiat and Choon Hui!), dinner, and a few crowning sessions later, the OB Kings and Queens had their first dance.

Then it was time to go crazy. =P

I sat back for awhile because people started pouring onto the dance floor. Then finally Devina and Snokee decided that they wanted to join in the fun and pulled me along. We went out after awhile though. Cause the drumming of the songs and the sweat was too much to bear.

Amongst the dancing sessions (which came in spurts, because we couldn't stand the heat for long) we took pictures and talked. Bernard and Chicken kept pulling funny faces and jumping into other people's photos. Oh, plus acting like a couple of "cool", though "apek", gangsters. =D

We were just complaining about the kinda songs they kept putting (most of them hip hop and rock) when suddenly, a slow song started. We were all like: finally!

And so, we walked into the ballroom again.

Since I didn't have a partner, Daniel danced with me first. The genius didn't even know where to put his hands. After he'd trodden on my toes a few times (it was painful, mind you), I danced with Choon Hui awhile (by the way, you're not a bad dancer) then with Alex (O_o).

It would have been fine if we'd just danced normally. The thing is, he seemed to like twirling me around 3 times and then catching me and pulling me close. As in, really close. A little too close for comfort. I could even... (okay, let's not go there) Thanks to my sense of balance, twirling around in circles 3 times is not enough to make me "swoon" and fall into his arms.

The fast songs came on again after that, so most of us walked off the dance floor to just sit around and watch other people go crazy.

I left at about 12.10 or so, having taken loadsa pictures and enough dancing to last me till next year.

Just got Audrey's reply. Looks like I can attend March camp for the first few days!!!

Shit. That means I gotta look through the excerpts.

Thursday, 19 February 2009

And Then...

One Word:


I seriously can't believe I'm still shedding tears over what I spent __ months to forget. Well, I managed to forget it, but something (I won't say what/who) just brought it all back. And I found myself reminiscing the old times, yet again.

Yes, I know... I've got an emotional range of a teaspoon.

In other words, I break down really easily. Or maybe I don't "break-down" easily, but I get affected easily. I just don't let anyone see it.

Or try not to, at least. Right, Lu Ee? =P

Can't function when some thing's bothering me. It disrupts my sleeping pattern as well. I start having weird dreams (like the one I had of some cute guy-stranger offering to "piggy-back" me just cause I said I was tired), or I have trouble falling asleep.

Anyways, audition's in a couple o' days' time. Surprisingly, I'm not freaking out half as much as when I went for the AYO auditions.

I spent a good half of the day at Liu Jian's place yesterday. Was there from 2pm till 8pm. Yes, to practice. (Though I might've gotten a little distracted by Liu Yi at one point =P) Had lesson, practiced, talked, ate cheese cake, practice and another informal lesson. After that, Markus (MPO Concertmaster), his family and another German guy (according to Liu Yi, he's gonna be Concertmaster in MPO for awhile) came for dinner. Liu Yi and I were playing with Markus' son whilst I waited for my mom to pick me up. Liu Jian said it'd be okay for me to join them, but I thought it'd be too awkward. O_o

Mom came to fetch me at 8.15 or so, then we headed over to Leisure Mall. (I had Lasagna in Secret Recipe! Yumm...) Shopped around a lil' then went back home where I devoured a
California Roll and some sushi that mom got from Isetan. (Reminds me of the lunches we had during camps)

Speaking of camps, I may not be attending this one.

Dratted OB night's tomorrow. I have still yet to purchase a clutch to put my stuff in. I have a funny feeling that the "handbags" I have/normally use would not do for a formal occasion.

And my bloody phone's falling apart (literally). I need to get a new one A.S.A.P.

Friday, 13 February 2009

Love is in the air...


Well, not for me, at least. Haha!

2 years ago, I got a rose from Ah-Kuan. But that doesn't count, cuz she's a girl. =P

Anyways, just dropping by to wish all love birds and happy couples a very Happy Valentine's Day.

For ya'll single peeps, you'll meet your guy/girl soon enough. Cherish being single, because you'll miss it once you have that special someone. But I do admit, having someone to love is always a very nice feeling. ;)

But I still think V-day is overrated.

Righto, I'm starting to crap already. And so, I'll leave V-day to those privileged to celebrate and head to my room for more gruelling practice.

I'm gonna die during sight-reading.

Nearly broke my pinky when I was playing Bruch. O_o

Thursday, 12 February 2009

Aiseh... Aiyo... Aiyoyoh... AYO =P

Pardon my nuttiness (if there's such a word). Currently going into craze mode with 2 auditions and the college prom coming up.

Speaking of which, I don't even f*cking know what to wear yet.

And I'm talking about all 3 occassions.

I haven't really done a serious audition anywhere (save MPYO) and so, I am clueless as to what would deem presentable.

As to prom,
I really wish I'd thought carefully about it before paying that dratted 150 bucks.

Went around dress-hunting with my sis. Didn't find anything suitable. And the sales lady didn't make it better by suggesting outfits which I'd never be caught dead in. Seriously, my shopping mood just went right out the window after her 3rd suggestion. It looked like something an effing auntie who's desperate to look young would wear.

If I can't find anything next week, I'll do what no girl in their right mind would do- I'll just wear that dress that I've worn already. Once. For a concert.

I'm not gonna crack my skull to look for a bleeding dress when I've got better things to concentrate on.

Watched Elizabeth: The Golden Age, yesterday. Loved it. She's got a really dominating and powerful aura around her. I salute the actress, really. The tone of her voice, her conduct and poise, literally queen-like.

Genius Bernard and Chicken decided to be good boys today, so I couldn't get my weekly dose of Badminton. Gonna play one more round tomorrow before I ground myself till after the YST auditions. Hopefully I don't put on too much weight that I won't be able to run. (Not that I run much anyways) =P

Wish me luck. "AiYO" auditions this Saturday. =D

Friday, 6 February 2009

Irony? Sarcasm? What's the f*cking diff???

Never knew a round of badminton for a mere duration of one hour would cause breathing to be a difficult task. AND I sprained my back as well. I'd better lay off the sport until after the audition.

Even now, after a day or so after I'd stopped playing, my chest is still heaving with the effort of breathing. Weird... I used to be able to play 2 hours non-stop without panting. Now a mere 15 minutes and I'm sweating as if I ran a mile.

Kenneth says my strokes have more strength in them, but I reckon that's because I was literally using all my energy. I had some pent-up problems and I wanted to let them go, so sue me.

It was fun though. Despite my standard having dropped to the pits since I haven't played from last year, at least I could still remember how to serve.

Loadsa homework. Mrs Dharma gave us an essay to be done by Tuesday, and Ms Grace told us to find out the diff between irony and sarcasm. I know there is a difference, with regards to the tone and all... But I'm having a hard time trying to put it into words. So if anyone could help me out, I'd be eternally grateful. =D

AND I'm now faced with a new dilemma that my parents decided to throw at me:

Auditions on the 23rd

OB Night is on the 20th

and my dad reckons I shouldn't go when I can use that amount of time to practice.


And it's not like it'll take the whole day. I'm only going for the performances and the dinner. That's ALREADY a compromise.

I really don't get how parents think.

Monday, 2 February 2009

Tagged by... =D


I've got nothing else to do right now... So sue me. =)

1. Does it matter to you if your boyfriend or girlfriend smoke?
I would never, and I repeat, NEVER be attracted to someone who rejoices in shortening the life of people within a five-meter radius of him/her.

2. How about drinking?
As long as he doesn't get drunk and turns to me to beg for sex. =P

3. Do you like someone you can't have?
I haven't got anyone to like. (Phew! Finally, I can answer this truthfully. =D)

4. If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
Yeah sure, why not?

5. What's your favourite sport?
Hands down, badminton. =)

6. Its Saturday night, and you're home alone... what do you do?
*laughs devilishly* Wouldn't you like to know...

7. Do you like roller coasters?
*squeaks in terror and runs away*

8. When's the perfect time to have a bf/gf?
Whenever you find a girl/guy who's worthy of your time and affections. (which is very, VERY seldom)

9. If you could date any celebrity, who would it be?
If I wasn't scared stiff of Angelina Jolie whipping my ass like she can obviously do, I'd say Brad Pitt.

10. What are you doing this weekend?
Practice, practice and pratice

11. What is your favourite restaurant?
Nippon Tei

12. Have you ever hugged someone?

13. Ever kissed someone you weren't attracted to?
Do my parents count? XD

14. Do you like anyone right now?
I can face Hades and still spit "No" in his face. =D

15. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?

16. Which do you prefer, Beach or Mountains?

17. What kind of phone do you have?
Sony Ericsson W550i

18. Computer or Laptop?

19. Jeans or Sweats?

20. Which year(s) has/have been the best so far?
2005, 2007 and 2008

21. How old are you gonna be on your next birthday?
You don't... honestly expect me to tell you now, do you?

22. What should you be doing right now?
Practicing. =P

23. What is your favourite TV show?
Err.... House? But I think it's getting old.

24. What's been your last purchase?
Clothes. (I've spent so much money in the last few shopping outings!)

25. Are you attracted to girls/boys that smoke?
No, I think they look incredibly stupid.

26. Have you ever fallen on your butt in front of a crowd of people?
Oh yeah... DAmn bloody embarrassing.

27. What do you do when you're at home?
Read, practice and annoy the hell outta my siblings. =P

28. What is your favourite subject?
P.E.? =P
Kidding! I used to love Maths until I started studying Add Maths. =D

29. What's the best thing that's ever happened to you?
Ehh? What I think would be the best thing that's ever happened to me always turns out the exact opposite after awhile, so yea...

30. 10 people to tag:

Lu Ee
Liu Yi
Choon Hui

The Aftermath...

CNY craze has come and gone. My family and I spent the entire week before spring-cleaning the house. My room in particular. I can hardly recognise it now... It looks neat and tidy and clean. And where there's usually a pile of my worn-but-still-clean-clothes, you can now see a chair. =P

It was fun though, cleaning and chatting and quarelling over where to put what. Parents went nuts and bought a few beautiful sets of flowers, 2 of which were displayed in the house and a few others put around the garden outside (I took pictures of them too!). Dad actually likes looking at plants. Amazing. Usually men don't find much interest in that area.

That aside, we've been gorging ourselves on huge lunches and dinners, courtesy of family and close friends. I've put on so much weight that those who haven't seen me for awhile would probably not recognise me. I blame it on those addictive titbits and my parents who insist on organizing dinner after dinner after dinner.

OOHHH! And we've been playing Scrabble every night since the eve of CNY. There was once where I had the worst of luck and had 4 A(s), 2 O(s) and an 'I'. Shitty tiles spoil the whole game. O_o But I've won a couple o' times. It's fun though, since we sometimes make up our own rules to make the game more challenging. Heehee.

Scrabble has taken over playing cards/gambling in my family as a CNY tradition. Have been doing this since my dad bought that fantastic Scrabble set which bloody REVOLVES!

Sorry, a bit whacked up now cause of some stuff on my mind that...

I can't tell you!

Anyways, college started last Thursday and I already have assignments. And so, I'll leave further details to my next post, which would comprise of all the random pics I took throughout the whole of CNY. =D

Screw Othello and Hamlet and Heaney and all other darn poets and playwrights who have no other better work to do than to torture me. (And Choon Hui =P)