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Wednesday, 30 April 2008

It's just another day in Paradise...

T'was quite a good day fer me. Both yesterday and today. We had our usual badminton-packed schedule, which caused my shins to really hurt after I got back home. Bernard had twisted his ankle (but he didn't say anything about it and still insisted on playing with me) during the intense game with the seniors. Funnily enough, Chicken and Kenneth were uninjured.

Classes were alright as well. I had double sessions of Econs and Law, which resulted in double insult-sessions for Alex. Miraculously, Bernard got even more annoyed with him than I was. Frankly speaking, I don't blame him. Even my clueless, gullible creature of a brother would know that JAPAN ISN'T A POOR COUNTRY! It's the second biggest economy in the world after America. So, hello? Reality check here, YOU need to get yourself informed with cold, hard facts before regurgitating whatever that comes to mind. Hold on, in HIS case, the words don't even go through his brain. IF he even has one.

Oh, and apparently (today) I annoyed him (Alex) so much during English Lit that he told his entire Business class (including the lecturer) how much,' I used to like Clarissa so much la... But now I just feel like taking a book and smacking it in her face!'

Normally, I'd get scared.

*laughs*

I was overjoyed.

It WAS quite amusing... When Kenneth related the situation (Bernard, Chicken, Kenneth and I were walking out for lunch) I actually felt a huge burden being lift off my shoulders. I was very, VERY relieved. Well, not really relieved, actually, but it was a good feeling nonetheless. Of course, some of you might say he was just angry, but at least it is somewhat a "turning point"(as Bernard puts it) for me.

Come to think of it, my situation bares the teeniest resemblance to the irony in "Emma".

Mr Elton likes Emma, Emma thinks he likes Harriet, Mr Elton proposes to Emma, Emma gets insulted/offended and rejects his proposal.

Alex likes me, I thought he likes Denise, Alex tells me he likes me, I get insulted/offended and go about annoying him in every way possible.

Really, having him liking me only insults me. I have my pride and dignity. As much as I cannot stand Emma's character, I heartily support her statement that, 'women should not be obliged to accept a proposal just because a man has offered her one'

So you can keep your lowly "affections" to yourself, thanks. I have better things to do with my time than waste it on guys like you.

'Girls should not be obliged to accept an "affection" just because a guy has developed them in spite of already having a girlfriend '

I'd pay to see the expression on his face if he ever reads my blog. Then hopefully he'll give up completely.

Coming back to what happened yesterday, I came across a funny character during our Badminton session from 4.30-6.30pm. Phillip, is his name. A senior, from the way he acts. He was a tad bit too bossy, in my opinion. Telling us what to do, how to place our shots, where to place them, etc... But surprisingly, we didn't find it annoying. We just, sort of let it go... But some of his "advices" DID ring true. So all in all, he was an acceptable fellow. A complete contrast to SOME people we know...

Oh, and I like this one phrase Mr Elton used when Emma puts the idea of him marrying Harriet: 'Ms Harriet Smith? I have never thought of her in the whole course of my existence!'

In MY case...

'Mr Alex Quay? I would never think of him in the whole course of my existence!'

I LOVE English Literature...

Monday, 28 April 2008

Guys-just-don't-get-it

Really, I'm getting more and more pissed by the minute. I have NEVER given any indication that I'd be a friend, let alone let you have the chance to develop a "fondness" towards me. WTF???

For those of you who can actually read what was written in the chatbox, I believe you'd be as mad as I feel right now.

On TOP of that, the idiot mentioned above saw fit to send me 2 equally (if not more) annoying SMS-es which roughly read:

MSG 1: I kinda feel bad bout the way I've been towards you. I wanna say I'm sorry and I feel kinda stupid saying this to you...

MSG 2: Hey... Umm... I want you to know I haven't been that nice towards you or around you because I've had a lot on my mind... And you really make me feel guilty towards my girlfriend so yea... That really sets me off. I'm sorry.

All I was thinking after I read those appalling messages were," WTF???"

His first message implied that I was somehow "affected" by his cold "treatment" towards me. Hello? Earth to bastards, I LIKED being left alone. I've got other people more worthy of my attention. Seriously, who the F- does he think he is? I haven't been an angel towards him since day 1 of college and I'm DEFINITELY not feeling the tiniest trace of regret.

The second message nearly drove me to tears.

Tears of laughter.

"Make me feel guilty towards my girlfriend..."

Look, I'm no seductress. I don't even know how to be one. He's obviously hinting that it's MY fault he started liking me behind his girlfriend's back. It's not my problem if your f-ing hormones are screwed up. Don't blame it on someone who, for one thing: can't even stand the sight of you, two: believe that men like you ought to be shot dead, and three: would never consent to be with an asshole like you even if you were the last living organism on earth. Oh, and just so you know, I fully support capital punishment.

Boy, that feels SO much better. Honestly, I plan to just ignore whatever he has to say. After all, guys such as these are not worth bothering with. I shall now move on to happier prospects...

I was supposed to stay back for the Dance Club thingy this evening, but decided that I wasn't about to wait for about 5 hours in college doing virtually nothing. (My classes finished at 1pm, the Dance Club meeting only starts at 4.30pm)

As usual, I was there early. But I was unusually early today. I reached the college grounds by 6.45am. The office wasn't even opened yet. So dad and I waited outside until the cleaning lady, who greets me every morning in the hall, came to open the gates. I was playing a fusion piece of my own verses and bridge combined with Yukie Nishimura's chorus-es. Life-less, I know. At about 7.10am, Bernard arrived. We started playing a little badminton, and soon discovered that neither of us seemed in the mood to play. Chicken joined us about 1/2 an hour later and we played 2-on-1 for awhile, with Chicken and I partially torturing Bernard.

That's pretty much all that happened. We had 3 hours of Eng Lit again with Dr. Shalini. Surprisingly I enjoyed today's lessons. I didn't even fall asleep during Mrs. Dharma's class! Trust me, that's a HUGE achievement.

Anyways, I have got to do my assignments now. Ciao!

Sunday, 27 April 2008

Woman, this will be the LAST time... Capito?!

[You]
First Name = Clarissa
Nickname= Clarinet, Kari Laksa, Claree, Claire...
Name you wish you had= I LIKE my name =D
What do people normally mistake your name as = Teresa, Claressa, Clarrisa, Carissa...
Birthday = 21st April 1990
Birthplace = KL.
Single or taken = single. And hoping it would STAY that way.
Zodiac sign = Taurus

[Your Appearance]
How tall are you = about 164, the last time I checked.
Wish you were taller = Hell, yeah...
Eye color = brown
Eye color you want = BLUE!
Natural Hair color = Brown-ish, I guess.
Current Hair color = Dark Brown. I wanna get highlights soon though...
Short or long hair = long
Ever dye your hair a bizarre color = nope, not YET.
Last time you did something dramatic with your hair = Never dared to try it.
Glasses or contacts = Glasses. I'm too lazy to wear contacts.. =P
Do you wear make-up = Only when I'm forced to do so. Mostly for performances and such... I don't like spending too much time on my face cause there's nothing make-up can do for it anyway.
Ever had hair extensions = EEW! NO!
Paint your nails = Only when I'm feeling unusually "girly". Which doesn't happen very often, if at all.

[In the opposite gender]
Eye Colour = I don't bother much bout eye-colour.
Hair Colour = As long as it's not too bizzare
Shy or Outgoing = outgoing
Looks or personality = If I were to be completely dishonest, I'd say personality... But honestly, I judge a guy by both looks AND personality. But personality would take higher priority.
Sexy or Cute = cute AND sexy. Heehee. I'm a greedy girl, aren't I?...
Serious or Fun = fun, but knows when to be serious.
Older or Younger = older. but..Age doesn't really matter. Though I draw the line at real generation gaps.

[This or that]
Flowers or Chocolate = flowers... chocs... I'm a sucker for chocalates but I would die for a dozen roses. Both, if the boyfriend's not too stingy =P
Pepsi or Coke = I hate them both.
Relationship or One night stand = Relationship.
School or Work = school. Trust me, when you finally start work, you'd wish you could go back to school.
Love or Money = love. But the need for money is a reality. So really, it depends.
Movies or Music = music! Life would be more meaningful without the idiot box. Seriously.
Country or City = country for fresh air, peace and quiet. city for entertainment
Friends or Family = friends AND family.

[Have you ever]
Lied = yes.
Stole something = NEVER
Smoked = no. I despise anyone and EVERYONE who picks up a cigarette.
Hurt someone close to you = Oh yeah... More than once.
Broke someone's heart = I think so.
Had your heart broken = Do I HAVE to answer that?
Wondered what was wrong with you = More often than not... yes.
Wish you were a prince/princess = When I was about 5 years old, I used to go around dressed up in tutu-like dresses and tiara-like hairbands on my head. Says enough, no?
Liked someone who was taken = Good question. I'll pass =P
Shaved your head = Heck. I don't even wanna THINK about it.
Been in love = I THOUGHT I was... but then I think it was just puppy-love.
Used chopsticks = duh =.= What's the point of being Chinese if ya don't use chopsticks???
Sang in the mirror to yourself = yeah... Crazy huh? Though I do that more often in the bathroom when I feel like emo-ing or hearing the echo of my voice XD

[Favorites]
Flower = Roses and Tulips. And pure-white flower buds.
Candy = I like most candies =D
Song = Love songs are my weakness. Some even succeed in making me cry.
Color = Black, white, blue and blood-red. (though I get comments that I look good in purple)
Movie = Pride and Prejudice. (the Colin Firth version. NOT Keira Knightley)
Singer = I know this sounds lame, but I tend to like boybands. Westlife, Boyzone, Backstreet Boys, DBSK, Super Junior, etc.
Word/phrase = Dang, crap, what the...?, the f?, de? (the Korean equivalent to "what?")
Junk food = PIZZA! I'm severely addicted to mozzarella cheese.
Website = Blogger
Location = I haven't been there, but I know I'll love Rome. The place of Romance. *sighs* What wouldn't I give to go there for a day with "Mr. Right"?
Animal = DOGGIES!!!

[Random facts]
Ever cried over someone = Unfortunately, yes.
Is there anything you wish you could change about yourself = Nobody's perfect.
Do you think you're attractive = Good question. I'd like to know too.
If you had to choose a fairytale as your life what would you choose = I don't believe in fairy-tales. But I used to gush over Ariel's (little mermaid) tail. I loved the idea of living under the sea. And THEN I thought about the sharks...
Do you play any sports = Yes. Badminton. Though of course, I suck at it.

Saturday, 26 April 2008

College on Saturday???

Summary of what I was up to yesterday (Friday): Went to college, attended classes, gossiped a little with Kenneth and Kart in the library, then headed off to SPCA, Ampang with Bernard. Walked from MCKL to KL central, took the LRT to KLCC, then a bus to Ampang Point, and walked for about 20 minutes to our community service destination.

SPCA was... fun. We actually spent more time playing with the cats and dogs than washing the bowls. =P We particularly had fun with this one puppy which I insisted looked a little like a German Sheppard. True enough, when Bernard pulled up its cute, floppy ears, it really looked like one. It was so cute, that if I hadn't had 2 dogs at home already, I'd adopt it. My sis (who came along with my dad to fetch me) went ga-ga over the pup as well. Well, it WAS very lovable.

Anyways, coming back to what happened today, I can't believe we had to resort to replacing classes on SATURDAYS! It's like one of the only 2 days I get to wake up slightly later than usual (my weekdays start as early as 5.30am) but no... I have to drag my feet out of bed at 6.30am, get dressed, go to college and sit through 2 gruelling hours of John Keats' poetry and Brian Friel's play (English Lit).

Which is just as well, because Dr. Shalini can't make it for classes when I have to be absent from college due to the MPYO camp coming up end of May. Damn, I'd be missing out on 5 days worth of classes!!! Should be no problem for geniuses like Tiki to catch up, but for average people with average functioning brains- in other words, people like me- it would be practically impossible.

Speaking of the MPYO camp, I'm freaking out slightly (but apparently, not enough) cause I haven't touched much of the repertoire we'd be doing in this camp. The Carmen Suites are going to kill me, Peer Gynt is gonna shorten another few years of my already-short-life (thanks to the amount of passive smoking I've done), I haven't even LOOKED at the Holberg and have not HEARD the existance of the other pieces. Heck, I can't even remember their titles. I'm SO dead.

Don't ask me why, but I suddenly have the urge to blog about the few new-found buddies from college. Here goes nothing...

Firstly, I'd like to point out that nearly every one of my first "judgements" with regards to a certain Philbert Tiki Yong have been proven, to a certain degree, wrong. I knew of him quite a few years back (Musical Jamboree and Encounter programs), but never actually met him until mid-March this year. My first impression of him was that of an intelligent, "innocent", friendly and nice kid. Boy, was I wrong... The dude's not intelligent, he's practically an "Albert Einstein" in the flesh. Only maybe he has better fashion sense, and a dirtier mouth, but that's beside the point. Tiki could be anything else in the world, but not innocent. Hell, I think he could be even worse than Kent. I HAVE to keep those 2 away from each other. Lord knows what other "theories" I'd have to bear with. The Economics theory was bad enough, the one about Accounts was just...

Okay, let's not go there.

After Tiki, who was (is) the only person I knew before I entered college, comes Denise. Denise was actually my ex-school mate from Kuen Cheng primary. She's transformed into a real beauty now though. When you see us standing next to one another, it's a classic moment of "Beauty (Denise) meeting the Beast (me)" We often greet each other by "hey, sexy" or "hey, gorgeous", which ironically enough, was started by Mr. Einstein (Tiki) himself. I suppose he still continues to address us (Denise and I) in that way because we often respond with a "hey, handsome".

And then of course, we have Sir Kenneth-TaekwondoMaster-Ho. (When he introduced himself, the first other person that came to mind was the Kenneth-bastard from Samad. But of course, this Kenneth is nothing like that arse) He (Kenneth Ho) was one of the first people I met in college. Despite his less-than-friendly disposition, Kenneth is actually a very nice guy. Although there are many of his "antics" that annoy me a little, you can't help but like him for being the protective "tai ko" that he is. Somehow, he sees me as a little sister, so we sorta have a brother-sister bond now. And then again, you WOULD get idiots (not mentioning names here) who thouroughly misinterpret our friendship and go around thinking that we're a couple. Hello? Earth to you close-minded people, just because a guy and girl spend most of their free time together don't make them a couple.

Out of Taiping Zoo, in walks... Bernard Yoon. Next to Tiki, he's the closest guy-friend I have in college. I got to know him through Kenneth, actually. This good-natured, friendly bloke from Taiping is a huge bundle of fun. Partly because he's real sporting even when you poke fun at him. He gets irritated easily, but it never lasts for long. We have made a hobby out of teasing him, because his reaction to our baiting is simply hilarious. He would beat all of us, hands down, when it comes to badminton though. I jokingly refer to him as "coach" whenever he comments on a shot I make on court. Funnily enough, Bernard also happens to be the one who talked, or rather, conned me into getting involved with the "Physical Fitness Club". Somehow, he has a way of getting what he wants. His weather predictions (often concerning rain and me getting wet in a white t-shirt) are accurate most of the time. The main reason though, of us getting along so well, is because we both cannot stand Alex. We often end up shooting sarcastic remarks at Alex (unplanned remarks, mind you) so much so that Alex always tries to ignore us whenever he's infront of the class doing a presentation. Doesn't stop us from what we do though- get his panties in a twist. =D

Another addition to my friends' list would be Mr. "Chicken" Henry. Henry says unexpected things at times, which makes us wonder if he's really the innocent kid he presents himself to be. I don't talk much with him, because he's a very computer-games-oriented guy. But we're really random when we chat online. You'd often find me typing, "no comment" when we chat cuz really, I don't get some of his statements. Especially when 3/4 of it are all emoticons. Damn La-la weii...

As Tiki has already mentioned, we spend our free time either in the library, student lounge or in the hall. Well, I'm a sucker for any space which has a piano in it, so me being there often is no shock. But Bernard, Kenneth, Henry, Tiki and sometimes, Denise and Alexis find themselves crowding around the piano, talking about anything under the sun while I "entertain" them with my ameteur playing. They throw in requests as well, when I've run out of pieces/songs to play. Though these instances are rare now, because Tiki has a very uncanny habit of twisting the lyrics which would form a very VERY different meaning.

Anyhoo, these few are the particular ones I've highlighted amongst many others of which I'd go into more detail some other time. To be honest, I've ran outta adjectives to decribe the endless traits of my fellow college-mates. To those I HAVE commented on, I hope nothing I've said above has offended you in anyway.

Thursday, 24 April 2008

Words sting a lot more than actions do...

Not in the best of moods today. Had some mental issues/conflicts earlier on. Most of them were internal battles with myself, actually. Stupid, I know.

I was crying a lot in the bathroom earlier while washing my face (after I'd taken a bath). I didn't even realise I was crying until I tasted my own tears. Unfortunately, that caused me to break down even more. It took a long time before I could finally compose myself.

Most of the day went fine until about 6.30pm-ish. The reality of it hit me like a tonne of bricks. I hadn't foreseen that coming so I was literally shell-shocked. My emotions were so messed up so I decided to let my frustrations out by playing badminton. Smacked the shuttle as hard and as mercilessly as I could.

BIG mistake.

Not only did I play a lot worse than usual, my shin and ankle hurt like crap once I got in the car. My wonderfully loose kneecap was giving me problems as well. It actually shifted to one side (again) during our warm-up session. So I had to stop halfway. Bloody shows how "fragile" I am, no?

Classes were fun. For the first time, Mrs. Chiu (Econs) actually criticised Alex in class. The whole class burst out with laughter. Here's what I can remember of the incident:

Alex: *laughs in a weird, annoying way*
Me: I wonder how your parents can stand you at home.

After awhile...

Mrs. Chiu: That's why they (his parents) sent him to work at the construction site!

I think Kenneth, Bernard and I were laughing the hardest. I have no idea why I take such pleasure in seeing him get insulted, but it feels good. =P

And I reckon this is the first time I made it through Law class without wanting to fall asleep. Perhaps today's topic was slightly more interesting than previous ones. Worse part is, she still talks in that monotonous, I'm-forced-to-do-this voice. Mrs. Dharma, I mean. She's a nice lady in general, but her classes DO get our eye-lids drooping...

Alright, it's getting late and I'm exhausted. I'd probably only update next week. Ciao

Wednesday, 23 April 2008

English Lit...

Had 2 hours of English Literature today. One session from 8-9am, and another from 10-11am...

The first hour was on Emma, by Jana Austen. I thought Mrs. Bennet from Pride and Prejudice was the worst character in the history of literature, but apparently I thought wrong. That nosey-poker of a woman/mother/match-maker makes one wonder how girls of that time survived with another poking questions about "appropriate" marraiges, "sufficient" income and "grand" social standings. Well, let me tell you one thing... Emma is much, MUCH worse.

She has a very high opinion of herself and is convinced that she is above most men. (in Chapter 4 or so, she mentions that she would "never want to marry" because she thinks it impossible to find another man of her "level") Unfortunately, she IS intelligent, well-informed, delicately mannered and intellectually proficient. So it's virtually impossible to pin-point her flaws if your judgements are purely based on social skills and intelligence. The only person who actually sees her faults is Mr. Knightley, who eventually becomes her husband. (when she finally realises that she is NOT perfect)

She's beautiful, rich and clever, and is content with being the sole mistress of her selfish father's estate. Her mother had died before Emma could remember, and her sister had married Mr. Knightley's brother. She utterly and thoroughly convinced that she would never fall in love (again, thinking WAY too highly of herself) with another man. What Emma does love, however, is poking her nose into other people's business. (Mrs. Bennet-in-making) She takes pride in her match-making skills (Emma thinks it was her who made the marriage of Mr and Mrs. Weston, her old governess, possible) and flaunts it.

Technically, it's not her fault she's such a -excuse the foul lauguage- bitch, because everyone around her (with exception of Mr, Knightley) encourages it. They are blinded by her charm and worship the ground she walks on. Even her father is oblivious to her faults and thinks the world of her. Explains what kinda "upbringing" she had in her childhood- loads of adoration, flattery and over-bearing compliments.

The good news for us readers is that her life (Emma's) starts to turn upside down with arrival of a little-miss-Harriet-Smith. She ALSO thinks the world of Emma and takes Emma's "advices" very seriously. Unfortunately for Emma, all her plans backfire when Harriet declares that she wants Mr. Knightley for a husband, which horrifies Emma. She filled Harriet with false hopes that she (Harriet) would be able to raise her social status by marrying up the social ladder, leading Harriet to think that the ONLY man good enough would be Mr. Knightley. But the reality is that, Harriet is not smart, overly compliant, poor, and without any profound social status. She does not know who her parents are (were), and is only known as a poor school-boarder in Highbury. Emma finally learns to correct her mistakes and become a better woman when all these things fall into place.

But really, I'm only halfway through the novel so I have the unevitable urge to smack some sense into that empty space in her head she calls her "brain".

Okay, moving on to the second novel. (Boy, was I long-winded) -Alias Grace, by Margaret Atwood.

This novel is actually based on a true story about a girl-Grace Marks- who was THE hot gossip topic for anyone and everyone because she was convicted of murder at the age of 16. (Do NOT compare Grace's case to the cases of today because now ANYONE is capable of murder) In Grace's time, women were believed to be docile, compliant, pretty and unintelligible beings meant to be kept in the confines of the house. So when the murder commenced, Grace became THE story.

By what Dr. Shalini has told us, and what I've read so far... Margaret Atwood's version of Grace's story is by far the most honest and un-assuming one. Susanna Moodie's account screams exaggeration and her style of writing just annoys the hell outta me. Others were meek attempts to sketch Grace Mark's personality.

I won't go into details because I, myself, am not sure of the details. No one EVER found out if Grace actually commited THE murder. If she really was THE murderess. It's all a mystery, somehow.

Poor Grace Marks...

Anyways, after the 2 hours of intense literary exposure, I met up with Bernard, Tiki and Henry in the student lounge. We (Bernard, Henry, Pradivan and I) were playing cards whilst Tiki was hogging my i-pod. And THEN the arse came. (yes, the senior I mentioned yesterday) We had just finished one round, so when he sat next to Henry and declared his presence, I just dumped the cards on the table, slumped back into the couch and refused to participate. Bernard knew why I reacted that way and vowed to try his best to prevent the arse from winning. I have to admit, I was rooting for him (Bernard) all the way. =P

There you have it, the longest post I've ever done. Most of which were book reviews >_<

To Bernard: Don't blame me if you fall asleep reading this. =D

Tuesday, 22 April 2008

Left arm? Check. Right arm? Check. Left leg? Check. Right leg? Check. My limbs are all present.

Another intense work-out. But I'm feeling surprisingly okay. Though my shoulder blades are aching from smashing so much (looks accusingly at Bernard), the pain is not unbearable. I've got no muscle pulls thus far, just feeling quite lethargic. Correction: VERY lethargic. Like, I don't even wanna walk to the kitchen to get myself a drink =P

I played reasonably well today (compared to my OWN ability). Smashed a lot more than last week, and I actually managed to manipulate my net-play. Which is something I've never done before this.

The best part was when I played for a few minutes with Alex. I don't display much "fancy" shots when I'm not playing on court (we were playing at the side of the hall) and Alex was already commenting on how aggressive my returns were. I told him I would smack the shuttle a lot harder on court but he wouldn't believe me. Hence, embarrassment for him, victory for me =D. I even guided a few smashes ON his body. And unlike the time when I body-smashed Bernard, I didn't feel a tinsy bit of guilt when Alex yelled out in pain. =P I'm evil, no?

Classes were alright. We got our Econs papers back. Don't even ask me what I got. I passed it, but the marks were far from excellent. I need to work hard man... Law was again, monotonous, but bearable.

Oh, and something REALLY surprising happened during college hours. I had just came out of Law class with Kenneth and we both headed to the hall where Bernard and Tiki were playing badminton with 2 other friends. I went straight for my "racquet" bag and unzipped it to get my racquet out. Only I didn't see my racquets. I saw...

*drum rolls*

Wrapping paper. As in present-wrapping-paper.

I was dumb-founded. Then I caught sight of the card heading (addressed to me) which looked a lot like Bernard's handwriting. I browsed through the card and saw 4 signatures at the end: Kenneth, Tiki, Bernard and Henry. I was so touched, tears were welling up in my eyes. Seriously. I mean, they hardly even know me!! I couldn't stop saying thank you. They got me 2 t-shirts and a mug. You wouldn't wanna know what they thought of giving me at first. =S

Okay, I'll stop here for today. I've still got some assignments left to do. Ciao

Monday, 21 April 2008

Apirl babies rock!

Yes, it's my birthday. Ate dinner at a Chinese Restaurant in One Utama last night. I'll post the pictures up later if I have time.

Nothing eventful, really. I got a new pair of shoes though. From KLCC. Aunt, mom and I were there from about 3-6pm, doing some shopping. Actually, the main reason we were there was to get my CDs. In the end, we did everything else there was to do, bought everything we had to buy, EXCEPT those CDs. I completely forgot about it.

Set out for One Utama at around 6.30pm. Ate, laughed over dinner and desert (as usual), walked around for awhile, then headed back home. I'd say dinner was the best. Though we got so caught up in our conversations that most of us (actually, just me and my aunt) quite forgot about our food. My aunt was relating her first few months of driving experience to us so we were all rolling about in laughter. (I showed her my "P" license) Said the whole neighbourhood would know she's driving cause my grandma makes a big fuss whenever she reverses out of the driveway. Hopefully my mom doesn't do that =S The rest of the evening was spent taking pictures.

This year's birthday was very much family-oriented. And I liked it. I think that's what a birthday should be like. Surrounded by those who love you. I know that sounds very... Well, put it this way, I'd rather spend time with my family and get my stomach aching with laughter than spend money throwing a party which would probably be remembered by nobody. =P

Nothing much happened in college. Wee Kiat SMS-ed at 12am sharp to wish me. Bernard, Tiki, Kenneth, Elizabeth and Henry all wished me. Classes were normal, though Kenneth broke some very disturbing news which practically ruined my morning. I didn't let it bother me for long and proceeded to enjoy the rest of my day.

Friday, 18 April 2008

I Do Cherish You- 98 Degrees

All I am, All I'll be
Everything in this world
All that I'll ever need is in your eyes
Shining at me
When you smile I can feel
All my passion unfolding
Your hand brushes mine
And a thousand sensations
seduce me cause I


I do cherish you
For the rest of my life
You don't have to think twice
I will, love you still
From the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If you're asking do I love you this much?
I do...


In my world, before you
I lived outside my emotions
Didn't know where I was going
'Til that day I found you
How you opened my life to a new paradise
In a world torn by change
Still with all my heart
'Til my dying day


I do cherish you
For the rest of my life
You don't have to think twice
I will, love you still
From the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If you're asking do I love you this much
I do

I'm absolutely in love with this song. Haven't heard it for awhile, but I caught it earlier through the radio. And I'm falling in love with it all over again... =P

Wednesday, 16 April 2008

Ash, this is gonna be the LAST time I'm doing this.

What was your dream when you were a child?

I wanted to be a musician as far back as I can remember. Though I remember telling my mom I wanted to be an author.


Sunny or Rainy days?

Depends. I like to do outdoor activities on sunny days and sleep in on rainy days. =D


What is your favourite colour?

Colour(s). I like blue, black, white and dark, blood-red.


Given a choice, who would you marry?

I know a lot of people would expect me to say "Yun Ho", but I don't want a celebrity husband. I'm only turning 18 next monday, so it's not worth pondering just yet. I've got better things to do with my time. (Look at other guys, for instance)=P


Where do you wanna go the most?

Country, you mean? I'd wanna visit Korea. If I had the money, I'd go to Europe. Rome has always been on the top of my list.


What do you like about yourself?

I don't like myself. =P Kidding. I like the fact that I can play 3 instruments reasonably well...


What do you do when you're sad?

Play emo songs on the piano then cry myself to sleep.


Who do you love the most?

My mom.


If you meet someone you love, would you confess?

Like I mentioned in previous tags *glares pointedly at Ash* I don't do the confessing. You want me? Come and get me. =P (sounds so provocative... yuck)


What have you done that you're still guilty about?

I have never really done anything earth-shakingly wrong, but there are a few moments where I wish I could go back in time and undo the things I've done.


How do you judge a person?

My opinion is based a lot on first impression. Looks don't matter much, but presentability is vital. And of course, mental stability. >_<


Who's your favourite cartoon character?

Ariel (from "little mermaid")


What would you do if the world ends tomorrow?

I'd walk right up to the Ministry and give them ministers a piece o my mind. AND fly to Korea and kiss Yun Ho. (KIDDING!) I'd probably get shot before I get near him anyways. I'd tell my parents and grandparents how much I love and appreciate them.

Tuesday, 15 April 2008

someone tore my limbs apart!!! AHH!!

I've NEVER gone through such an intense day-workout before. Even with my long years of playing this sport, I've never commited more than 4 hours (in a DAY) of my time to it. Badminton, I mean...

I was playing from about 7.15am till 7.55am in the morning with Bernard, then from 10 till 12 with Kenneth, Tiki and 2 other dudes, and THEN another session from 3.30pm till 5.20pm with Bernard, Kenneth and Henry.

I don't wonder why my limbs currently feel as if they don't belong to me. *sigh*

No way am I repeating this (intense workout) next Tuesday. Nu-uh... I felt so dirty and sticky the whole day. Thank god for air-conditioning or I would have seriously stenched up the classrooms. THAT would be disastrously embarrassing.

Econs was fun today though. Not that it isn't normally, but today was an exceptionally fun session. We had presentations on 13 different commodities around the world and it was really interesting. Bernard and I were bombarding Alex with questions as well. I wouldn't have bothered had he not acted as if he knew everything. Like Dr. Shalini said yesterday, he asked for it. =P

Had "char siew pau" for lunch earlier. At 2.40pm =P I didn't have time to eat during the 1/2 hour break from 12-12.30 so I dragged Kenneth out to get something and stuff it down my throat. Then we sat and talked in the canteen while waiting for the rest to finish their Math class.

After that, we had a short meeting with Mr. Michael to discuss about the "Physical Fitness Club". Touched on things like funds, the running of the club, the reason it exists, etc...

Then it was back to... *drum rolls*

Badminton.

It was supposed to go on till 6.30pm but I couldn't take it anymore. (at least, my legs couldn't take it anymore)so I just sat down and rested while the monkeys continued playing. (No offense guys, but I played more than ya'll did)

Came back home, ate, rested for a bit, then headed to the showers. Played a little "sit-down" badminton (I was TOO tired to stand up) with my brother and now I'm online.

Monday, 14 April 2008

Econs tomorrow... I'm SO dead.

It was as usual today... Went to college ridiculously early, entertained a few people with my ameteur playing, went for my classes then headed back home.

Law was okay... I was on the verge of falling asleep so I had to resort to drinking loads of water to keep myself awake. Otherwise, it was a good lesson, excluding the times when Alex HAS to open his big yak to comment about something. Which, unfortunately, happens quite often...

English Lit was really fun. Well, partly because I was ragging on Alex the whole time. I'm not being evil or anything (yea, right) but it's HIS fault his vocabulary range is so.... pathetic =P Not that mine's particularly fantastic, but he didn't even know what a "bough" meant.

After college, my sis, dad and I headed to a chinese tea house for lunch. We had a cheese-baked chicken chop each, some "dim sum" and a drink. (Mental note to self: NEVER order chinese style mushroom soup) Then it was off to fetch my brother from school. He wasn't very happy that we ate without him, but what the heck? I was starving. =P

Played with Snowy and Miko for awhile when we got home. Bathed, then watched a bit of TV before invading my dad's office. (I needed to use the internet via the wi-fi thingy) and I still have not gone home yet. Will do so in about 1/2 hour's time cause I have yet to touch the violin. =P

Ciao

Saturday, 12 April 2008

I love you, Wo Ai Ni, Aishiteru, Saranghae...

Love... What is it actually? Is there a specific definition of love? Is it merely a display of affection?

Heck, I don't know.

My friends often say they love me, but they don't neccessarily mean it. That word doesn't carry much meaning nowadays... In my opinion, it's being used too casually.

But that's just what I think.

Men who play with the hearts of women ought to be shot dead.

I'll give you readers a simple example...

A conversation between 2 guys:

A: I think I have a crush on C.
B: Don't you already have a girlfriend?
A: Yeah, that's why I'm contemplating between C and my current girlfriend...
B: How can you like 2 girls at the same time?
A: Why not?

*end*

I've got only one adjective which fits A's personality- Bastard.

Quite frankly speaking, I know such a guy. And I heartily wish I could strangle him to death. No wait, I should torture him first. But like Tiki mentioned, it would just make a bigger mess and cause extra trouble. So he should just drop dead.

I'm willing to bet his current girlfriend is the sweet and sensitive type.

Bastard.

Sorry for the repeated swearing. I just feel very strongly towards guys who take girls for granted. We're human beings with human feelings and we deserve to be treated with respect.

Anyways, back to happier prospects...

I had a good lesson with Liu Jian this afternoon. Said that this was the first time my intonation was so clear. The piece I'm currently playing is nearly done. I just have to play it with more feeling... (-_-')

Gonna start on Bach next. And I have to polish my scales and arppegios if I wanna stand a chance in the auditions next year. AND I have to play a piece by Paganini... =S

Boy, am I in trouble...

Had a good dinner earlier. Went out to the "pasar malam" with my siblings to get some snacks then headed back home. Now I'm chatting, blogging and listening to Mozart's String Quartet in G major,K 156.

Will post again tomorrow.

Thursday, 10 April 2008

I want a Ferrari for my birthday, thanks =P

I FINALLY got my "P" license. Took the test just 2 days ago... I was dead surprised I actually managed to pass when I was already dead tired from the trip back to KL. I wasn't particularly nervous until I got to the slope. Thankfully, I managed to get the car off the slope without it screeching. After that, parking and the three point turn were "kacang putih"

There were a few girls who actually found difficulties starting the engine. =S Then I got REALLY scared when I witnessed more than 10 people failing at the slope. Parking? Those who failed were plain idiots la. Girls? Lousy judgement. Guys? Their ego was their downfall... Went to fast and ended up running into the poles.

Poles?

God, that sounded SO wrong.

Classes have been alright... Eng Lit is STILL a challenge, Econs is fun, and Law? According to Mrs. Dharma, common sense...

Nothing much has been going on, except for the fact that this one wonderful senior of mine decided to open his big yak and tell OTHER seniors bout me playing the piano every morning. Immediately after it got out, I subsequently got more "audience" listening to me play first thing in the morning. Better yet, they're going as far as requesting songs now... Especially this classmate of mine who actually makes it a point to come early. Whether or not he really likes listening to me playing or he just wants to torture me remains to be seen.

oh, and I got conned into setting up this "Fitness" club by 2 of my classmates. Supposed to just put in my name as a sign of support, but now I ended up being DIRECTLY involved with the club. Perfect.

Best part is, it clashes with the Music and Drama club meetings. At least 3 of my seniors have asked me to join (those who have heard me play), so I'd feel a wee bit guilty if I don't. Join the club, I mean.

Will post tomorrow if there's anything new. Anyong!

Saturday, 5 April 2008

Another tag? Blehh...

What are you craving for now?
I haven't had my lunch so I'm quite ready to swallow an elephant.

What was the last movie you watched?
Does a Japanese series count? Haha! Nodame Cantabile. It's about music, generally. With a bit of romance, comedy and irony woven in...

Who/what would you bring along if you were to be stranded on a deserted island?
Who: MIKO! (my puppy), Ash, Jason, Kent, Pui Yee(so we can laugh our ordeals away) and Dao Zhong.
What: my i-pod, laptop, piano, electone and my pillow!

What are you most happy with right now?
The fact that I can live my life the way I want it.

If you could make one dream come true, what would it be?
It would be every girl's dream come true to marry the perfect guy and live a perfect life. Unfortunately, that doesn't happen anymore, so I'd just focus on getting into the YST conservatoire...

What are you afraid to lose the most now?
my family

Why are you wasting your time doing this?
*points accusing finger at Ash*

If you meet someone you love, would you confess to him/her?
Confess? That word doesn't exist in my dictionary. If I like a guy but he doesn't know it, he'll have to find out on his own. I'd NEVER say anything about it.

List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
Adorable, Lovable and definitely kissable!

What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
Understanding, similar tastes in music (I will NOT have my husband playing rock music on the stereo) and a good conversationalist (I don't want to be talking to a wall) It would be helpful if he plays an instrument as well. I'm not being a hopeless romantic (can't stand the idea of someone serenading me under the moon, so cliche!) I just find guys who are musically inclined, hot. =P

Physically? Really, I don't care that much. Just as long as you're not too hideous to look at, I'm fine.

Which type of person do you hate the most?
Liars, backstabbers and butt-kissers.

What is your ambition?
Live life to the fullest, take good care of my family and meet Yun Ho!! (I was KIDDING) I hope I'd eventually have a good job, live in a nice house (no kids) and die without having to suffer beforehand.

Are you a shopaholic?
No, but I do like going shopping with my mom. Not so much with my friends because they pretty much try everything there is to try and end up buying nothing. -_-;

What would you do if a person faints in front of you?
If it were my friend, I'd get a cute guy/hot girl to perform CPR. If it were a cute guy-stranger, I'd do it myself. Ugly guy-stranger, I'd call the ambulance =P

What makes you different?
I've turned down 6 out of the 7 guys who have asked me to be their girlfriend. So I'm pretty much known as a guy-let-downer O.o

If you could go back to the past, when would it be, and why.
The time when I got my ATCL diploma results. The amount of joy I felt was unexplainable. The fact that I accomplished something to be proud of would be worth reliving anyday.

Friday, 4 April 2008

Why do people even do this???

Basic Info

What is your name?
Clarissa

When is your Birthday?
April 21st, 1990 (April babies rock!)

What is your sexual orientation?
I'm not a homosexual, if that's what you mean...

What character traits do you look for in a potential interest?
I don't think I'm a fuss-pot, but I'd like someone who I can be myself around and has the ability to stand my sarcastic remarks. A sense of humour is essential, and a good conversationalist would be the icing on the cake.

What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest?
None in particular. As long as he doesn't look like Voldemort (Harry Potter) or Micheal Jackson, I'm fine.

What sort of people do you like?
I get along pretty well with everybody, as long as they don't pry too deep into my personal affairs. (I keep VERY much to myself) And I like those who find me interesting, but will let me decide on what I want to say and when to say it.

What kind of fashion-sense attracts you?
Again, as long as it's not too "Lala" and you don't wear your pants too low. Clashing colours are a no-no. I don't give a hoot about brands, but please don't carry a bag which spells- Billaebong.

What is the usual age range you look at?
I refuse to pull a Demi Moore and have a boyfriend more than 10 years younger. Around 1-3 years older would be fine.

What traits turns you off?
Physical: humongous buff, anorexic skinny, and too-long frizzy/curly hair.

Are you afraid to ask people on dates?
I-am-a-girl. I don't do the asking.

Single Life

Do you wish to be in a relationship?
At the moment, no.

What's so good about being single?
My phone bills are not so expensive, free time, freedom to look at other guys without feeling guilty.

Do you always long for companionship?
Occasionally. But I can amuse myself when I need to.

How well do you handle rejection?
I've never actually done a confession before, so I wouldn't know.

Do you miss your last sweetie?
no comment

Do you look for love or let it find you?
I'd rather let it hit me.

Feelings

Do you have a crush right now?
Yes

Do they know?
Yun Ho doesn't even know I exist. Besides, I don't speak Korean so communication would be a HUGE problem.

Have you ever confessed to your crush?
No.

Has someone ever confessed to you?
Yes. A few actually, most of which got turned down. =P

Would you get involved with someone with a child?
If he's still married, no.

How big an issue is religion to you?
Personally, I'm not religious. I don't mind him believing as long as he doesn't try to make me believe.


In a potential mate

How important is conversation to you?
Vital. Where's the fun in life if your partner is dumb?

How important is intelligence to you?
I don't want a Math whizz. I like to talk about music, sports and literature, so being intelligent in these aspects would help. (I find guys who can play an instrument a to-die-for)

How important is a sense of humor to you?
My entire family consists of people who have a bottomless store of jokes and sarcastic remarks, so you'd better be prepared.

How important is forgiveness to you?
Don't cross me too often. I forgive easily, but I don't necessarily forget.


Love

Do you believe in love?
Yes

Do you believe in love at first sight?
Hell, no.

Has someone ever told you he/she loves you?
My parents, grandparents, relatives and good friend tell me they love me. IN love with me? once or twice, I think.

Do you feel it's compulsory to splurge on Valentine's day gifts?
NO!


Conclusion:

What would you consider a life well-lived?
In short? No drugs, no smoking, don't sell your body. respect and love your family and friends. Appreciate those around you because life is short. Have a good job, successfully raise a family and die a natural death.

College woes...

It's been quite an experience. I never thought I'd be comtemplating on what to wear for college -_-; Usually, I just throw on whatever I see above the mass of cloth I call clothes. HAHA!

Classes have been alright. Economics is a lot of fun when Alex has his yak shut. English Literature is VERY time-consuming and which needs about 10 litres of patience. Law is somewhat monotonous, but interesting when previous cases are mentioned. Again, it would be all the more enjoyable if only Alex would shut up once in a while.

He's not THAT annoying actually, I don't even know why I get irritated with him. Perhaps the way he talks make me wanna punch his lights out... (He sounds a little like Kenneth from Samad...)O_o

Speaking of which, Tiki came up with- "Sex is like economics, it's all about supply and demand" last night. Wait till Mrs. Chiu hears about that...

And in Law, somehow the topic of Micheal Jackson came up, and I mentioned about the concert where his "nose" actually fell off. =P

I SO oppose the suggestion to implementing Muslim laws to us non-muslims. If a Muslim decides to stay under one roof with a non-Muslim (unmarried), why should the non-Muslim be punished based on the Muslim laws? Doesn't quite make sense.

Now we come back to politics. What's with the excessive spending of OUR money to build houses (estates, more like) for those brainless bastards? The excuse to stay nearer to one another for convenience of discussion is bullshit because they leave those houses/estates to their relatives instead. Not like they CAN discuss anything anyways. Like we've witnessed on the News and Internet video sites, most of them take about 20 minutes to string a coherent sentence together.

Alright, I'll post this up and THEN answer to those tedious questions. I'm only doing this because I love you, Ash. You owe me BIG time.

Thursday, 3 April 2008

God? A very debatable subject...

I suddenly thought about the Easter production I attended last week with my siblings, aunt and uncle. It actually (miraculously) got me thinking about the existance of God...

The opening items (as I recall it) were 3 worship songs. Personally, I'm not a religious person, so the lyrics annoyed me more than just a little. Another thing that REALLY pissed me off were the 2 girls leading the singing. Love God? Sure. But please (I'm pleading here) don't make it seem as if you were momentarily possessed.

Which brings us to the purpose of this post...

First thing's first, I don't have anything against following religion, I'm merely voicing my thoughts.

Okay, here goes...

If HE is really protecting US (like they say he would), why is it that innocent children get raped, abused and murdered in the most inhuman ways possible? Like the 8-year-old who was murdered some years back. She had a nailed-end of a broom handle shoved up her vagina, which ended up piercing her heart. Where was God when all that happened? Then you have Nurul Huda, Sharlinie (still missing), Nurin, etc. Imagine the torment their families went through. If anyone dare suggests that their parents were the ones at fault, I'll stuff a broom handle up your ass and see how you like it. The punishment should then be laid out on the parents, not on the child.

Apart from that, the bastards who committed those crimes were never convicted. Suspects were always arrested, only to be found "not guilty" or they'd be released on bail. These children died for no apparent reason. (If you've got the guts to say it's because God has other plans for them, you'd better have the guts to endure a few punches from me)

Now, parents no longer let their children out of the house. Even my own parents are always sceptical about letting me go out alone. And I'm 18! They say they wanna bring justice to those who had done wrong. Justice, my ass. That word barely brings about meaning anymore. It barely even exists.

What about the millions of people starving to death all around the world? What are they suffering for? Atoning their sins? I'll bet my life that 98% of those who have died of starvation/incurable diseases were as innocent as newborn babies. I know life isn't fair, but this? It's plain cruelty.

Oh, by the way, I curse those inhuman, inconsiderate, unintellectual asses to hell for living like royalty (using OUR money) while others are fighting to stay alive. Screw the government(S) (note the plural) who are doing absolutely nothing to help these people.

I'd better stop here or I'll start being very emotional...

P/S: Everytime I think about wanting to believe in God, I shrink away when these thoughts come to mind.